Hi there everyone. I am new to this and I need to get some stuff of my chest and some advice would be nice as well. Be gently though
Well there it goes. I have known the guy I live with, for 16 years. We have been best friends for a little over two years and well not long after that we also started sleeping with each other. He was 24 and a virgin and I was 21 and was not. Well things were wonderful when we brought our relationship to the next level. He truly is my best friend. We talk about every thing. He is very good to me, he is honest to a fault and takes care of me. There are a millions things I could tell you about him that makes him such a nice and wonderful guy.
My problem is this: for years before we slept together, since he was a virgin, he resorted to internet porn and such to get his "release". Well I believe that he may have gotten addicted to that. Not to mention that the things you watch in porno's and see on the internet, some of them are outrageous. I will say that I am open to try things when it comes to sex but I do not want more than me and him in the bedroom if you know what I mean. Well since I am the only person he has ever "been with", he is now wondering what it would be like to "be with" someone else!!! He hasn't acted on it and he may never. He knows that it hurts me to even think about it. I don't know what to do. I find that I have gotten really jealous since I learned of this and its like I am trying to make sure that it dosen't happen. He tells me that he loves me more than anything in the world and never wants to hurt me. He may never do anything with anyone else but believe it or not I actually feel bad that if he dosent' do something that he will always wonder and resent me because of it. I don't know what to do. I don't want to leave him but sometimes I think maybe it would be best to just be friends for a while and just see what happens. I am so in love with him and I love him more than anything and I tressure our friendship and love. I would never want to lose it. PLEASE help me! I feel that I will push him away for being jealous now. Can someone give me some advice?
Please be gentle
Thanks for reading this!