UpUpAndAway

I do have days when I'm strong--incredibly strong, even. Today wasn't one of them. I miss you so. damn. much. I want to see your face, your body, your heart. I want your heart. Where did it go? Where did you go And yet, if you came back, would I even be able to handle it?

Do you do ANYTHING without getting high first?????

When will you learn

Your life is full of sick patterns and recklessness and you are so damn selfish. I hope your new b*tch struggles with your BS in a very serious way.

That is EXACTLY why. The endings of all of my shorter relationships have been excruciating, agonizing. With the longterm relationships, though, I felt at peace with ending them as it felt as though they had actually run their course. There was still pain, but a completely different kind of pain...it didn't feel out of control. Like a cut that isn't so deep. A papercut vs. a * * * * ing stab in the heart.