cariad

When we spoke, I was happy that you said you missed me and that there were times over the last week where you'd had your phone in your hand dialling my number before thinking it wouldn't make anything better. I'm glad you're going through the same things that I am, but * * * * why wouldn't you try and get me back? Hurts so much right now because I know you tried so many times to get her back. Maybe it's because of all the times previously we broke up and got back together, maybe I had my limit? In my head I know if we got back together it wouldn't work out - nothing would change at all. I need time to work on myself - it was stupid to think that this past year wouldn't change me. I need to go back to being independent - this needy version of myself was killing me. I really hope in a few years, if we meet again, we can give it another go. Love you so much xxx

"You're 30, bald, living with your mum and in a s***e job. I have a nice house, amazing job, good car and am way out of your league. And I can do the splits. And I swallow. You did everything you wanted, went out whenever, went away on holiday, you had so much freedom and trust and love from me. In the meantime, I had to dumb myself down for you so you could understand what I said, I felt bad if I talked to people I wanted to and ended up spending so much time, money and energy trying to feel good enough for you. I hated the person you turned me in to, and am looking forward to being the independent, uncaring, fun girl I was before you f-ed me over." lol hellloooooo Anger stage : ) This forum rocks!!