Post here instead of contacting your ex! in Healing After Break Up or Divorce Posted April 3, 2013 So... I'm supposed to find peace in the fact that a. you are never going to dare to be confronted with my side of the story and my feelings and.. me in general and b. I acted like a big borderliner. I understand my own reaction and I understand yours. But still I am really angry and dissapointed at the both of us. But atleast I gave you a chance to work things out without getting back together. Just to be ok with eachother in the future. You gave me no answer which is the most clear answer ever. It is going to hurt to see you again in that bar but I shouldn't avoid it. I shouldn't avoid you. Because I don't want to be like you. What happened to that beautiful man I thought I knew.. What happened to you? Do you really don't care at all or do you care too much? It is really tough to let go. To forgive. I want to. I really do. But it just .. gets stuck in my head. All these questions I have for you so now I'm posting it here: Am I really thát terrible that you can not even reply to such a heartfelt message ? Are you really not bothered at all? Why didn't you let me speak to you? Why the hll did you postpone it till a week later? Like my feelings are something to postpone till it fits you?! Why can't we just talk about it? Why can't we just come to an understanding towards eachother and just move on? What would you do if I broke this whole pretendtoignoreeachother thing? Would you hurt me like I've tried to hurt you? Were you even in love with me? Why did you tried to avoid me meeting your friends that desperately? Was I not alternative enough to meet your friends? Because they are oh so metal and I'm not? It all just doesn't make sense!!! And I can not analyze it all!!! I'm sure as hll trying but I'm going in circles. I just want to let it go! But it's just so me to try and put all the puzzle pieces back together. But with you I just can't! Because you will not be open to me about your feelings and stuff. But I just can't find peace with this!