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Ive tried and tried again and youve shut me out for the last time and in all honesty Ive had enough. I hope one day you see how badly youve dealt with this and how much you have hurt me. No longer. Goodbye love, I sure wont forget you. x

Ive got to say goodbye love. I cant cling on like this any longer. The fact that you cant even make time to catch up any time in the next 3 weeks speaks volumes to me. I get the feeling that theres someone else in the picture and I guess its only natural for you to back off now but it still hurts. I miss you like crazy despite all that you have put me through. If I ever see you or speak to you again please please dont show me any affection physically or verbally. It just messes with my head. This has got to be goodbye, although I dont want it to be, it needs to be so I can move on. I miss you x

I havent felt like this for so long. You know that the worst thing you can do is ignore me. All I ever wanted was the truth and for you to deal with things properly. I could never hate you but I HATE the way you deal with things knowing full well that it hurts me so much. I wanted you in my life and would have sacrificed so much to keep you in it and this is what I get in return. If you wanted to move on why did yiu keep me so close and then cut contact to easily. A year on and Im still so in love with you. Maybe this is what I need to properly move on. Take care love, I really do miss you xxxxxx

I do love you, you know I do..... Im crying while I type this. Months later and Im still clinging on to the hope that one day you'll change, the hope Ive been clinging onto for over a year now. I know you miss me but not how I miss you. It was a mistake to stay with you the other night, waking up next to you again just reminded me how much I miss what we had together. You moved on much quicker than I am able to. I guess thats because youve had a lot more time to think about everything and were more prepared. Im tired of feeling this way. I know that if we hadnt contacted each other since I moved out, Id be a lot further into the recovery process than I am now. Why dont you want me? What did I do wrong? How can you only want me as a friend and why cant you see a future with me by your side? Im not going to contact you now but I know you'll contact me at some point. I dont want to, but I know that every time I get a message on my phone I will be hoping it will be you. What Ive got to remember is that youve let me down so many times and its all my fault......... yeah, my fault for expecting you to change. I blame myself for not having the ability to accept change, accept rejection and not being able to move on. I do miss you, I do love you and I guess I always will but I have to accept that you will never change your feelings for me. I still dont understand though, if you loved me as much as you said you did, why werent you prepared to work through it all? Im sorry that I couldnt be the one that made you truly happy, thats all I ever wanted to do. I would have been by your side until the end. Please take care. I love you X