justaglimmer

I swear, this anger that has come over me is driving me up the wall. I want to cause you so much pain. Anger is the absolute worst to deal with because, hell, if I'm just "sad", I can cry it out and it eventually lessens. What will make this anger go away? Punching something? I can only punch a pillow so many times. I want to make out with some random guy just to break this connection to you. I want to do something that would blow your mind and have it get back to you. But of course I have that little voice in my head saying "Now now, don't do anything crazy that you'll regret later." * * * * you, "little voice". *sigh*, you had a girl who STILL can't bring herself to hurt you, at least not intentionally. You took a good heart, and crushed it. I've never EVER met someone so selfish. You drive around town in your fancy vehicle (which you put more time and effort into than me). Next time I pass you, I seriously want to give you two big middle fingers, if I can manage while still hanging onto the steering wheel. Just who the hell do you think you are? You came into my life and told me every little thing I did was wrong, you judged me and you didn't know WHAT THE HELL YOU HAD. I would have spent my life with you, I would have rubbed your back after a long day, told you every chance I get how handsome you are, I would have started a family with you. Why couldn't you keep your word? You promised you'd change your ways and understand that I'm more of a sensitive soul, while you have the aggression of a pitbull. You didn't even remember my birthday, did you? Let's be honest here. Yeah I still miss you, and I hate it. I finally know what its like to love and hate someone at the same time. You always picked on me over the stupidest * * * * ... You know that, right? You know you could have just left me the hell alone. You think you're so crafty and smart and think its funny to play hurtful tricks on me. You HURT me, in more ways than one. You are a cowardly man but you think everyone should bow down to you just because of what you once did with your life you think you're some kind of hero... well, hero, you lost my respect. Every little ounce of it. I see you for what you really are, and you're probably fooling some other girl right now but thats ok, I was onto you a long time ago, I know there are things you haven't told me. Tisk tisk, mr. perfect, you are slipping!

I dreamed about you last night, and it was a wonderful dream. I miss you so much, and I wonder if you feel the same. I dreamed that we were traveling somewhere far away together, just you and me in the car, it was raining outside.. I'm still sorry for anything I've done to hurt you, despite the many times you've hurt me and you never once apologized. I miss cuddling with you... I miss your kisses.

You're such a cowardly little pansy. How dare you block MY number after going off on me and throwing one of your crazy temper tantrums for no good reason. You're a lot of hard work and I'm so sick of your sh**, drama queen. Your way or the highway? Well, your way isn't working for me anymore. You're always accusing me of sh** when the truth is that I'm not doing a damn thing to be accused of! Your mistake, you selfish, selfish d***.