iwannarun

it gets easier. you werent the right guy for me. i still love you. but im done. i can ignore your texts with no problem. i am slowly, and surely, getting over you & everything will be ok. i will find a guy someday who loves me for all that i am, and i know it will be amazing. you might regret your decision one day, you might not. but you made a huge mistake letting me go. that is all!

I have to see you tonight. Scratch that...I'm choosing to see you tonight. Why? I don't know. All I do know is that it's been almost 6 months since we broke up. And while I am doing a heck of a lot better than I was a few months ago....I don't know if I can handle this yet. UGH.

Ahhh hard to believe I'd had to start all over after a month of NC just for you go right ahead and text me. Anyway...moving on. Day 4. Everytime you come back, I think of you a LOT for days. Then I realize it's stupid, and I know you aren't interested in starting again anytime soon. So here we go again!

5 months and 2 weeks. Do you even realize it's been that long? Sheesh.

Not sure how long its been really...a month? I don't count the days anymore, though I used to. I do know it's been 5 months and 3 days since we broke up though. And it's getting easier and easier to not want to talk to you. Time does heal everything.

One day at a time. Soon the day will come when I don't think of you at all!

I still kinda miss you sometimes. But I have no urge to speak with you or hear anything about you. Or see you, etc. You will be a thing of the past very very soon.

I forget how many days it's been...but I'm thinking a few weeks. NC forever this time. No interruption to my healing anymore. It doesn't hurt anymore (does that mean I'm healed? probably not) but I do miss him still, a little? I think I do anyway, I'm not really sure anymore!

It really doesn't hurt anymore. I've accepted that you are no longer in my life. To make sure of that, though, I finally did delete all your texts and your number. I make sure I never run into you, ANYWHERE, and I try not to think too much about you. Instead, I think a lot about leaving this city and traveling. I think about doing fun things this summer, going on vacations, exploring, learning to play the piano, etc. I do stay plenty busy without you, and I'm proud of myself for being able to be this strong finally. You're not a part of my life anymore, and you probably never will be again. I wish you the best, but I am done.

It's safe to say I still miss you. But I will be okay. I'm planning on going on trips, working on my goals, etc. I'm fine...just not the same as I used to be when you were mine.

I've accepted we're done. I've accepted we'll never be friends. I accept you're gone. I still miss you, I still wish things could have been different. When I think of you, it hurts still. But life is too good to worry about you anymore.

Day 1 begins again...for the hundredth time, 4 months after breaking up. Let's hope this time is for good.

I miss you. I don't know if I'll ever stop missing you completely...I kind of doubt it. But I don't think we're going to be friends anytime soon, even though I would be okay with it. Why can't I get over you?

It's been 27 days since I've spoken to him. It would be at like 60 days if it hadn't been for the week that him & me were talking to each other. UGH I hate myself for that week. I got my hopes up that we could be friends for real this time. But anyway...continuing on! I miss him. A lot.

I miss you. Do you GET THAT? That I miss you. And that it's been over a month since you've talked to me. A month. 5 weeks, in fact. I don't know what happened, or why all of a sudden you changed your mind yet again. All I know is...I hate this. I Miss you so much, sometimes it hurts. It hurt yesterday & it hurts today. When you start dating another girl, it will hurt even more. A thousand times more. Why do you do this to me?