ned2010

i have hope that i will get my ex gf back, and i hope the NC idea works, i dated my ex last year before xmas and it didnt last long and we split, and i did all the desperation things, the gifts, the lovey dovey stuff, ect ect and she blanked me and pushed me away and we didnt talk for months which was hell but i never gave up hope, and 6 months later we got accidently in contact and i played it cool and she started showing interest again and we dated for a month and then she ended it again and turned nasty, she tried to push me out her life saying she wanted to move on, so i argued with her into being friends and we did the friends thing, found it hard to not be clingy, and i tried to convince her to see me again as i felt she may be still attracted to me, she thought about it but i ended up pressuring her to far and she said no, so i basically made all the mistakes you can think of, because i didnt want to have to do the NC thing again as its hell and was scared she would find someone else , but in the end she ignored me and blocked my facebook and she tells me she hates me for no reason the big problem why we split was the distance, but in all fairness i known her 5 years and we was always on and off as friends, we almost got together several times years ago but distance got in the way, but i proberly done more for her then any other guy has and i am indeed kicking myself because the last time i was with her i was as nice and sweet as anything but i didnt recognise her needs, which made her have doubts about the relationship and now i recognise the problem i know i can fix things but now she lost interest and has judged me wrong as i said we always had on and off relationship, i just hope 3rd times lucky, i havent spoke to her for 3 days and that feels like too long and i hope thre still a chance