willow42

i cant believe i let you treat me like this for 3 1/2 years. to hear the words "i'm not sure i've ever loved anyone" after i pour my heart out to you is beyond unbearable. i know that you care for me and want me in your life still, but it is not fair to me that you still text and accidentally "pocket call" me whenever you want. all i ever wanted from you was love. i wanted to be more important than video games, beer pong, going to the bars, football, anything. i just wanted you to notice that i loved you more then anything. i would have done and did do everything for you. you were my life. i made sacrifices for you and you did nothing in return. you were sweet here and there but mostly distant. you said i love you twice and i'm not sure you meant it. what kind of person thinks it's ok to date someone for 3 years and never say you love them? you don't deserve me. i realize now that all you did was drag me down and make me feel unwanted. however, with that said why cant i get you out of my head? why do i want to reply every time you text me? why do i still think there is hope for us? i know someday soon i will be over this and you and i will move on and find someone wonderful who loves me the way i need to be loved. until then, i wish you well, but i want you to know that you seriously need to work on yourself before you lead someone else to think they they are good enough to spend the rest of their life with you. please don't contact me anymore.