Hey hey...thanks for the link.
It is good you are making so much progress, seeing this for what it is. You deserve 10x's better in your life. Let her make her big mistakes; she'll hit rock bottom or she may keep hitting the same brick wall over and over and never learn or grow. That's her deal; you are dealing in reality. Getting you back, getting back out there, learning to find "your Happiness" again.
You finally see her for what she is and you finally see what her true intentions for you were. A back up plan, the "just in case, I'll keep you handy"...but you're not her crutch, her 2nd choice or backup plan. You are soo much better then that.
You cared about someone, you gave all you had, they refused the lifeline you threw out to them when they were sinking, and so, all you can do is wipe your hands of it. She continues to make an A$$ of herself throwing herself at her ex and all you can do is be proud of yourself and how much progress you have made while she is still miserable.
If one day she opens her eyes and it hits her what she lost along the way, including her own self respect, it may hit her she let the best thing she had go (meaning you), but that will be her big regret. You'll have come miles away from that by then, likely happy and compelete in your own progress and looking back at this time as just a minor speedbump in the giant adventure that is your life...you won't even wince about this one day...maybe shake your head at what you were thinking...but you definitely won't wince!
Good luck- EPL
