LarsWB

If you can't find what you're looking for online or at a book store, ask the artist to draw one up for you. I'm covered with tattoos and have done that many times, with good results. Just make sure you hit up a shop that has ARTISTS, not just TATTOOISTS. Big difference. Good luck!

Do you miss me? Anything about me? I miss you...that smile, that laugh...and those eyes. Please get out of my heart and mind, stop torturing me.

Well FWIW, my wife gave me the best, sweetest hug she'd given me in a year - the very morning she left me and our kids. Hard to tell I guess.

PLEASE get out of my heart and mind. PLEASE give me peace. Let me fall in love with a beautiful woman someday, not just move through life a broken, empty shell. You'll never know how much you've hurt me, how deep you've cut me.

PLEASE give me peace. Get out of my heart and mind, or come back to me. If you miss me, tell me. I spend every second of every day thinking about you, how you are feeling, and wondering what you are thinking. I pray ever day now for God to take this heartbreak away and just let me breathe...and smile again. I'm trying to be as strong as I can so I can take care of our son. God has handed me this task and I'll do my best. I wonder how long it'll be until I can honestly say that I don't love or care for you anymore...and that I don't care where you are or what you're doing? I can't believe what kind of person you are now. I want to hate you, but I can't. I swore my life to you and we took vows together, twice. Doesn't that mean anything to you?

I've found that ABSOLUTE NC with her is going to be next to impossible...simply because we have kids, and our son lives with me. Our daughter left for college this past weekend, and my wife was here in town...back for the first time since she left 3 months ago. I didn't see her, and only responded to her email about getting our son over to her mother's to spend the weekend with her. No emotions, no clinging, nothing. Just a basic response. 16 yrs together, lots of love, and here I am today wondering if she misses me, thinks about me, and what (if anything) she felt while she was here. She came into our house while I was at work, to help our daughter pack up. This house full of memories that i live in, painfully, every single day taking care of the son she also left. She took a few of her computer books...a box of things that belonged to her grandmother...and a couple of cookbooks. It doesn't make any sense to me, at all. I'm glad I didn't see her....I'm glad I didn't ask her to coffee...I'm glad I was strong enough to stay invisible. It hurts a lot though, today, because I know she left again...drove back to where she's living. In a room at her Father's house. I personally WILL NOT break NC, I did it enough the first month and 1/2 after she left. LC is painful, but I have no choice really. I'll try to keep strong. I think it was about 3 weeks of pure NC before this weekend...so today I guess starts over.

I missed you this weekend. I miss you this morning. There are so many things I want to say to you but you've heard them all already...a million times in the last few months. Keep hiding, keep avoiding...that's the only way you know how to do things. I want it to hurt, I want it to sting you SO bad just like it has me....but I can't carry that in my heart the rest of my life. I don't wish anything for you, good or bad. Why didn't you take your things like you said you would? I'm so sick of dragging it out, I'm so sick of hurting like this, yet after 16 years together I can't help but have hope in my heart that someday you'll miss me.

knowing you're in town and that you don't think enough of me to even want to talk.....that hurts more than i thought it ever would. I mean we have 16 yrs together. Even if that doesn't mean anything to you....do you at least care enough to wonder how I'm doing - what I'm up to - anything? I want to let you go sooo bad but I just can't yet. I'm just not able to no matter how hard I try. I can't believe what you've done to me....and that you just don't feel anything. I can't believe you're so numb. Pleas get out of my heart, get out of my spirit and soul....PLEASE give me peace....if you want to talk to me, if you miss me, if you want to come back then f-ing tell me before I close my heart off to you for good.

I miss you today. The weather is turning cooler...and I remember how much you liked Fall. I love you D. I miss you and everything about you. No matter where I go, or who I'm with, I'll always love you.

I love and miss you, I always will. I didn't marry you and renew our vows years later just to let go so easily....but you've left me no choice. I'm trying so hard to move on. You'll never know how much it's hurt me. You'll never feel pain like this over me, and I wish mine would stop....but I can't make it move along any faster. Do you think about me, miss me, and wonder what I'm doing? I can still smell your hair and feel your skin. I can still hear your laugh in the house. I can still see you in the bedroom and when I reach over to put my hand on your stomach and rub it...I can feel your skin. How will I ever find another like you? Was this it for me....my one and only chance?

I'm so sick of waking up every morning, seven days a week...and feeling this pain in my heart, my stomach....and knowing that you don't feel it. You don't feel the sense of loss....the void....the heartache. Will you ever? Will you some day? You've caused more pain and damage that you'll ever know.

Do you miss me? Do you miss the house....and all the things we use to do together? I love you so much. I want to hate you, forever, but I can't. You karma is now your own.

Here I am this morning...taking the kids downtown and the three of us trying to have a fun day. The huge void is there....that huge void..where you use to be. I miss you so much I can't stand it....you've hurt me so bad, you have no idea. You've hurt your kids. They miss you. I love you Dee.....God please, help me get through this somehow. Does she miss me? Does she think about me? I need you right now God, more than I ever thought I would. She's my wife, we have a long time together. Why doesn't she want to come back? What is it? My heart hurts so bad I'm just paralyzed today. I didn't think it was possible to love someone so much, and hate them at the same time.

I LOVE Miyazaki. On to it then... I miss you Dee, I miss you terribly...every thing about you. It's Friday night and I wonder if you miss me....if you're thinking about me....what you're doing while I'm here at home taking the kids out for dinner and having fun together. I have arts shows and I go alone. I'm at home, and I was invited to all kinds of things tonight....but I didn't go. I want you to come home. I've asked God and the Universe to touch your heart and soul. You told me you LOVED me only a few weeks before you left. I know it's inside you. I'm trying to detach, to move on...but how do I do it? Please give me peace. Please come home and give us one more chance. We have 16 yrs together. I miss you.

I love you Dee, and always will. There's no getting around it. I married you, twice, for a reason. Please stop torturing me, please stop coming into my dreams and thoughts. It hurts worse than you'll ever know.

I'm sooo lost still. 16 years together, through good and bad...I swore my life to you, I swore to stick with you through thick and thin....and you left me. you've destroyed my heart and soul. so why can't I get over you? why can't I just fall out of love with you? I miss every single little thing about you. Do you miss me? Do you miss anything?

I hate mornings. I hate waking up and realizing you're not there. Mornings use to be my favorite time of the day....I'd make you coffee, kiss you a few times....leave you a note. Do you miss ANYTHING about me? Do you miss anything about our 16 yr marriage? Where is your heart? How can you just throw this all away? How long were you dishonest with me before you left? I need closure. Talk to me, please....talk to me.

I wonder every day, 7 days a week....every minute....every second....what you're doing. If you miss me....if you think about me....or if you could give a * * * * . I wonder why I miss so much about us, about you, and you don't? We were married 16 yrs, and I never thought I'd end up being the one taking care of the kids, and keeping this house I bought for you. I love you, and I hate you for what you've done to me and this family. I want the best for you, and I want the worst for you. I want your karma to pay you back for the hurt you've caused me....but I also pray that god and the universe keep you safe. Please get out of my heart and mind....please stop torturing me. I can't take it anymore, but I have to. I have to because the kids live with me...and I have to be strong for them. God please help me.

At my art show last night there were so many attractive women I couldn't count them. All I could think about was you...and the vow I took to be your husband. I always envisioned you at my shows once I became successful. It hurts like a mother * * * * er to think you don't find enough value in me to try things one more time, differently, with the man I have become...not the man I was a year ago. Through all of this, for some reason, I love you still. I always will. This hurts.

I don't know HOW I'm going to be able to get you out of my heart and mind...I really don't. Do you miss anything about me? Do you think about me? I want to tell I love you, so f-ing bad.

tonight sucks...I want to talk to you so bad, hear your voice, and ask you how you're doing. you'll say 'just fine' and you'll talk to me like i'm just some guy you knew from the neighborhood, like a friend of yours...like we were never married 16 years, like we were never close....and i'll be hurting like hell inside - and i'll know that you told me you loved me, and i felt it, and you don't care anymore about me. or do you? i don't know. i want you to get out of my heart and mind.

How could you do this to me after the way I loved and cared for you? You said I love you...on May 18th, first time in probably 8 months. You led me to believe our relationship was getting stronger, better than it had been in a year! I work for months and months to change my behavior, to change our lives together and you made me think it was working. And then you left. You just left me. Didn't even want to keep the momentum going. Do you think about me? Do you miss anything about me? What are you running from? Why do you keep talking about possibly coming back...or being sweet to me, making me think you care...every few weeks? Are you trying to hang on to me to keep me from moving on, or are you torturing me? You have no idea how much you've hurt me.

WHY the * * * * did you leave me and this family? Your kids? Every evening when I come into this house and see all of OUR things, the hurt comes back. HARD. I'm exhausted from hurting over you, thinking about you, and wanting to kiss you again SO BAD. How could you hurt me so much? How did you get this power over me? Do you hurt too or do you not give a * * * * ? How could I love someone so much....someone that did something like this to me and our family....to her own kids?

I want to, but I won't. I have to get strong....lots of things coming down the pipe that I'm gonna need strength for...and dignity. Hold on dude, don't call or text....leave her the hell alone. She doesn't deserve you or anything you have to offer. You've spent a YEAR working on yourself, your marriage, and your relationship just so that she could LEAVE anyway....and so suddenly, no warning. Don't let her take away your power. Don't let her. Great thread, thanks!