tryintosurvive

Just want to tell you "X" that because of you breaking up with me in April I met someone at church not long after that just blows who you were to me out of the water! Ya see....she doesn't lie like you. She doesn't chat online with other men that you would call "just friends". She doesn't live in cyberspace. She doesn't look for the next best thing when the going gets tough! She doesn't take me for granted. She's an equal partner unlike you! She tells me all the time how much she loves me and doesn't want to lose me. We BOTH go out of our way to make each other happy. I don't need to provide her with anything! She is smart, independent, has a great career and is a great mother (unlike you were). In hindsight, you were selfish. She is giving. She has "it" together, your a friggin mess and so are your kids! They always will be and thank God I'll never have to deal with the stress of that!! I'm almost done caring about what we had because it was never meant to be, wasn't gonna work, and I was just too blind at the time to see it! I could have been hurt worse by jumping in and marrying your sorry ass. I'm so glad I didn't. Cause your just the type who would take my child (God forbid we had one together) and runaway back to your home state to your mommy and family. There were so many subtle signs in the few months before you left that I thought you were cheating on me like locking me out of your phone and closing chat windows on Facebook when I'd come up behind you at the computer. It was obvious you had something to hide! You probably were cheating at least emotionally. Guess I'll never know and I don't give a damn! I never want to know. I really don't! You know, you were right about something Ms. X, you said men always go for the looks. You couldn't have been more right about that. You were hot, the sex was hot, but you turned out to be nothing more than an empty shell of a human being. There is a saying, beauty is only skin deep, but ugly is to the bone!! I'm almost over you and not because I miss the "you" but because I can't believe how cold and cruel you were to me in the end. Your not worth my hurt anymore and it's about gone. I will be so happy when your gone from my brain completely. I've thrown or deleted every bit of crap I had of you away. Now come on brain, you can do it....catch up! Can I get an AMEN!!!=D>