Matt_P

i really can't stand this. why can't i get over you? i feel so guilty because i messed everything up but you didn't help matters at all. why did it have to end that way? why couldn't we have worked things out sooner? i guess it was never meant to be, and if it is then you'll come back to me. i just hate to think of you having fun with someone else, more fun than you had with me. then you'll never want to come back and i'll always regret losing you.

You're beautiful and i lost you because i made you feel otherwise. After 7 years it became too much to not know what it was like being with someone else. I never knew what it would feel like to be away from you, to be single, to think of you with someone else and the very real possibility of that happening. I can't stand the thought of that. I want you back so much. I love you and would marry you if we got back together. I know i have to give you time now, and sort myself out, but i'm worried i'll never have that chance with you ever again if you meet someone else. I'm just so sorry, and hate myself for everything, and for losing you and for making you feel so bad.