CodeMaster7

Hey again! I'm feeling better and i'm more confident about myself right now. i think i'm just kinda confused about my (rather new) emotions and all the emotional things that have to do with girls.. about the drugs. according to some online-tests, i'm not an addicted user ... maybe i'm a bit at risk with trying out new stuff, but i'm in control of that.. when i really think of it, i'm not using those things because i'm alone or feeling bad. maybe i sometimes use alcohol to be a bit more brave - i think that's no problem though. i know that there are some contradictions between my posts now.. that's because i'm not always really sure about what i really feel and i'm also often unsure about what i think. pls don't blame me for that. thanks for your time to all!

to Gilgamesh: yeah... probably you are right.. even so i called her today and as usual we had a nice conversation.. she said she wanna come soon.. to Aura Seeker: "...you are making life decisions on how you are handling things" - i don't fully understand what you mean with this. well, the week-ends aren't my whole life but i must admit they are a big part of it because all "important" things happen on week-ends.. i get to know new people, i have fun, i don't have to care about anything, ... yeah, i should check myself.. but i can't right now, because next week-end there is a really cool party at a friend's house... and then there are holidays, when it is nearly impossible to stay away from them... LAME EXCUSES... i know... wow, maybe i'm already a bit out of control.. thanks for showing that to me... the thing is, e.g. that party: i'm really looking forward to that party, and i must admit that i also look forward to smoking weed again and drinking spirits and feeling relaxed and comfortable after that... if i say, i'll stop after THAT party that doesn't sound very believable, does it? i could just not take it serious at all and move on.. is it serious at all?? maybe i grow out of the drugs when i'm mature enough... i don't know.. i don't feel like stoping now.. it's just too comfortable.. maybe it do is TOO comfortable.. well, they aren't called drugs for no reason, so of course they are TOO comfortable... ey, my mind's fu**ed up now... again, thanks for your advice!

thanks for the answers! to Gilgamesh: thanks for your detailed answer! you are right. i don't feel anger for her.. that's because i've got no real reason to.. as i said, i was never in a serious relationship with her.. i met her on the school-trip to france (we are from austria) and we liked each other at first sight. we only say once during the trip, because she comes from another school and had different targets to visit. then when we went home again (by bus) we had a little spare time in Monaco (what a city!!...) and there we walked a bit around and then finally kissed us.. shortly before we kissed she told me that she'd actually a b/f in dubai (that's about 3000 km away from austria, very long distance).. well, i thought that all will go well and she will break up with her b/f but she didn't... 2 weeks later she sent me a message saying that "there is no point" and excused for what was happened. during this 2 weeks she always said she needs time.. well, i stayed in contact with her and phoned her sometimes.. then i got a new g/f but didn't feel love for her - we broke up, it wasn't hard for either of us because there were no real feelings. then i started to actually forget her, i was really happy about that... but then... *bang* SHE phoned me... i was really happy that she phoned me but at the same time angry that i felt in love with her again.. she told me that her b/f broke up with her (she hadn't seen him since i met her first) .. i phoned her again, she said she would come to visit me.. i was happy, but in the end she again, hadn't time to come. (she lives about 1-2 hours away btw) ... i know that she hasn't got much time, because she is in the final class of her school but i also think that if she'd really like me she would find the time to come... also i don't know why she would want to come if she doesn't want anything from me.. or maybe she just wants to be "good friends" .. it's 3 weeks ago now since i last heard something from her.. i ask myself if i should directly ask her.. or if i should wait to see her again and then let her decide.. i really don't know... i think i will call her again today - just for some small-talk... maybe for a new date... but i have got to end it somehow soon because it's killing me... to sisterlynch: well, ... i can stay away from drugs if i have to drive a car or something that needs my full responsibility.. but when i feel like there is no reason to not do it... i take em.. sounds kinda stupid, i know.. i don't feel addicted yet, but i think that's because i still live at home with my parents and that makes it kinda hard to smoke weed all the time.. i think right now i could get addicted if i lived alone.. for the drinking part: it's really hard to not drink on week-ends in austria.. everybody drinks here (legal drinking age is 16 here). to redwolf: yeh true, but i think I've got enough positive experiences but I feel like there is something missing in my life... and if i try to do other stuff i feel like i only compensate what i miss and never get to the real contentment. thanks again!

hey, i check this site quite often because i'm interested in others problems and also the solutions ( i don't post often.. I'm more a listener)... but now i've also got a problem.. or more.. dunno.. I'm 17 years old now and feeling bad... it's not that my life isn't good. I'm rather good at school and i've got many friends but no g/f, even though i could have 3 of them, but i don't really feel love for them. I just read the post about the guy who love this girl he had 7 months ago. My case is rather similar, except for that i have never had a serious relationship with this girl, but i still love her and i've tried so hard to forget her and now i doubt i will ever be able to.. i feel alone.. empty.. usually at weekends i drink a lot or/and smoke weed.. i know it is not good but it makes me feel better.. and if it is only for a few hours... i think i'd also try XTC if somebody had one... sometimes i'm afraid of myself. i don't feel this way all the time though... usually in school i'm the happy guy who seems to have no problems at all and completely enjoys his life, but that's not true. i feel empty, unable to move on, unable to follow my own principles... I had to write something to feel better. excuse my grammer if there are any faults in the text, i'm not a native speaker.

maybe you are just not attracted to the usual beauties. everyone has his own preferences on how girls should look like. I preferably like small-sized girls .. have you never seen a girl on the street (or somewhere else) and thought "what the f*** ??!! what a horny girl!!"? but maybe your preferences are mainly personal qualities. don't know. i wouldn't care much about it if i were you.

I don't think that going from hand-shaking to cheek-kissing is a drastic change.. I also live in Austria and it's quite common to cheek-kiss girls when you go clubbing. Actually I hardly ever see someone hugging, but that's just my humble opinion. greetz from austria

if i were you i would make an abortion.. really.. you ruin your whole youth! you are 13, you wanna go out with friends, have fun and i bet you wouldn't really want to care about a baby yet. obviously you can't talk to your stepmum about it, so i'd just tell it the doctor.. he is bound to professional discretion.. i don't know if it works the same way where you live though wish you the best for your future! pls use prevention next time..

hm.. if he also likes you then i think you just have to catch him alone. ask him to meet him somewhere alone or go out with him into a pub or something and search a dark corner. that should do the job. HTH best wishes, klaus

thanks for your answer! really good point! gotta think about it!

Just want to know what you think about porn?? Can it be dangerous? porn isn't allowed here for under 18 year old, but every boy looks at it. I came to this question because I just read an article about a boy who watched at porn every day or every 2 days and masturbates and his mother wants to "help" him, because she thinks it's dangerous?? Why should it be dangerous?? Help pls!