So I got quite a shock this morning. My Husband, who we've been living together for 10 years and married a year ago, and I was cuddling an playing on the bed. He had his jeans on and as we were goofing around I noticed something sticking out of his pocket. I pulled it and and found a used meth pipe. My jaw dropped to the ground. For background, we don't have a major history of drug use in our relationship. Maybe some pot here and there, and I know he's done coke a long time ago when he was hanging out with some bad friends, which he no longer sees. We don't have drug using friends, we don't hang out in any drug scenes. The funny thing us Meth has ALWAYs been the disgusting drug. We've had full on conversation talking about meth, and how disgusting it is, and how people are who use meth are foul, and he had never done meth in his life. But he works in a warehouse with truckers that come by everyday to drop off cargo, and the usual warehouse employees, and there are people who use meth at his work. He said he's 'only' been doing it for 2.5 weeks because work was getting so hard and busy he couldn't keep up so he asked one of his co-workers for it. He said he's been doing everyday since. And I KNEW something was wrong!!! He's been acting weird and doing strange and erratic things and I kept asking him 'are you high?' and he's been acting like a tweeker! Like last Sunday, on his day off, he got up at the break of dawn, took my car, and LOADED it with 2 tons of trash bricks covered in mortar he found on craigslist and started dumping it in our yard. I freaked out and was like ' are you doing!!???' and we had a HUGE fight. Well find out today, that yes, he was high on meth when he did that. So he excuse of using it because of work falls through right there. He has a very very addictive personality. He was a heavy drinker basically the whole time I've known him and only recently has he stopped. His dad passed away last March and every since then he's been struggling and going down hill. I never expected him to do meth, and when I married him, I didn't sign up to be married to a meth head. I don't know what to do. He said he would stop, but how do I trust him? He's been hiding it from me for 2 weeks. And even the 2 weeks thing I don't know if I believe him on that. He's been acting funny ever since his dad died. And I even found a broken pipe in his coat pocket months ago, on a trip we had, and he said he found it on the ground and was going to show me but forgot. Like what!!?? I told him you might as well tell the whole truth and admit to how long it's been going on, but he will NOT admit to doing it longer then 2 weeks. I don't know what to do. I am completely floored and pissed. This is not the life I want to lead. I don't want to be married to a meth head. He can't seem to get a grip on himself and deal with his grief. I don't know how I am going to trust him. . tl;dr: Found a meth pipe in husbands pocket, have no major drug history, but husband has a very addictive personality and was hiding this from me. Don't know what to do.