Buddha5254

I know we fell in love, and then things went way too fast. You would joke around about eloping. But when you broke it off with me last week it broke my effing heart. How could you do this 2 weeks after you suggested we move together to another CITY and get jobs and be together. YOU were the one who wanted to make it official! you are such a flake and so effing moody to be around and I was starting to feel miserable and felt like I was dating a child. So why does this hurt so much? I guess I still thought there was a chance things would return to the way thing were before you got all weird. Maybe you didnt get weird, you just ARE weird and I was too blinded by love to let myself realize it. I have wasted so much time being depressed and anxious and ruminating about stupid stuff about us. I wish I had the foresight to break it off with you first. I knew we werent going to work out, just wish I had the balls to act on it quicker and not fool myself into thinking things would improve. You effed up with me, so now go back to dating your regular array of addicts and people who treat you so badly. You missed out on a really good guy.