knowmorelisa

I can't stop thinking of you. Some weeks are worse than others. This weekend will be my birthday and you will be with him. Will you think of me? Will you send me a birthday wish? Will you just ignore it like you have forgotten me completely?

I still love you so much. I want to see you, to talk to you, to hug and hold you. I want to tell you I love you. One day, when he leave you, I will show you these posts and you will know I never stopped loving you.

I miss you, I want to talk to you so badly. It hurts. I think about you with him, happy, doing all the things we did together while I'm here just trying to survive. You are my angel, my gift from god, I will always be yours. I love you so much.

I love you, I always will.

I have nothing, he took my girlfriend, my lover, my best friend and all my memories. When I think of kissing you it's him kissing you, when I think of making love to you it's him making love, when I think of our walks it's him walking the same street with you. He even took the memory of where we met. I have nothing left. Nothing. Nothing to hold on to, to help me get through the next day. You were the feeling one, how could you not know? I told you I loved you and that I wanted you back, how could you not see the desperate man I was clinging on to any hope. Why, why, why would you invite me over and make love to me. For 5 months. I hate you and I love you and I can't get past it.

I love you so much. I wake and it's you, I stumble through each day and it's you, I go to sleep and it's you. Has he kissed you yet, has he made love to you? Did you make him wear a condom until he gets tested. Has he told you he loves you. Have you said it to him. Has he met [daughter]? I had to sneak around for months. It's none of my business and I don't really want to know. I'm grieving, going through the stages, denial, anger, questioning. eventually I'll get to acceptance and then I can start the recovery. When someone dies there are others who feel the loss and can share that loss. When a love dies you are the only one feeling it and no one to share it with. Remember, when he says he loves you he's only known you for a few weeks, I've known you for years. I love you. I don't know if I want you to reply, what can you say that you haven't already said? If you don't reply how will I know if you even read it. Does it matter? Which would hurt more. Neither, they would both hurt. The only thing that matters is to have you back in my arms.

How can you say there is nothing between us. You dumped me and for the next 5 months you call me over to be with you. You knew I loved you, you knew I wanted you back so why did you call? Why would you sleep with me? Then when I say no more you get someone else in three weeks. That is just so cruel. YOU KNEW I LOVED YOU!!!! How could you hurt me so badly. I hope he treats you bad, I hope he's a pig and I hope he cheats on you. That's how it feels to me, like you cheated on me. This is such a great site.