d_lilah

over 2 months NC. I still think about him every day, in a purely "I wonder if he ever thinks about me and will ever get in touch" fashion, not about getting back with him. I've been on antidepressants since NC was initiated. I have finals coming up soon, and they are making me constantly tired and I can't concentrate, so i've decided to come off them for the time being. If my mood is severly affected by my coming off them, I want to make sure I don't contact him, hence my posting on this thread. It's only been three days and i've noticed he is coming into my mind a lot more. How is it possible for one person to mess me up so bad?

I loved you with all my heart. We were good together. You told me you loved me and I believed you. I would have done anything to be with you. Anything. As much as it hurts, I now see the truth. You didn't really love me. You only loved the idea of being with me. I just wish you had been honest with me. I don't hate you, despite of how you treated me. I might have said and done childish things, but you don't know how much my heart was breaking. You might think that you were acting grown up, but all you did was leave me and abandon me. Try and look at life from someone elses perspective for once. It hurts that I was so easy to forget. I know I will never hear from you again, but I wish you all the best. I am letting go of the past, I hope that you do too.