yonanz

My dearest princess, Why is it that every morning when I open my eyes, and every night when I close my eyes, your the first thing that comes to my mind? I so badly want to be happy on my own, but I realise whatever happiness I have deep inside has been taken away the day you left me. Love tiptoes so silently when it arrives but leaves with a BIG BANG! It left my whole world upside down and everything inside shattered, but its OK. I'll live. One of the hardest things in life is letting go of something you hold so dear to your heart. I would rather see you happy without me, than unhappy with me. In our relationship I have always insisted on things my way and you, your way. But at this moment I have decided to be your gentlemen and bow away gracefully. I know our arguments and quarrels over the past many months have drained you already and I dont want to still argue or quarrel with you over possibly one of the most painful and difficult decisions you had to make. I respect your decision, although I didnt agree with it, simply because I love you. There's no been a day without me dwelling upon guilt after guilt, regrets after regrets. But I realised things just happened for a reason, humans make mistakes, love hurts and we lose in order to grow. Without taking a step back I wouldnt have seen what Im seeing now. I dont hate you for hurting me, just like I hope you dont hate me for hurting you. Words cannot convey the remorse I feel, nor take away the awful things I've done or said. But believe me when I say I have never meant to hurt you in that manner, and I would do anything just to see you happy and hurt-free once more. Thank you for giving me this opportunity to grow and mature, and to see ourselves and all that we have been through in a clearer perspective. My greatest wish is never to repeat the same mistakes again, and never to hurt anyone the way I did in our r/s. Only time will tell if we are ever meant to be again, and I hope if that time truly comes, I can be a better man who is truly deserving of your love and beauty