PandaEyes

It is your birthday today. When we first broke up 6 months ago, I thought that by now, we would be friends again. Today though, I am glad we are not. I am not ready and dont think i'll be ready for a while if at all. I am not ready to see you, speak to you, hear about you (even though I want to) or even be near you. It makes me anxious, and unhappy and I dont like myself when I am with you. At first I was so hurt and wanted to do anythnig to get you back. NOT ANY MORE BUDY. Being with you brought out the worst in me. I was lonely, depressed, self conscious and really unhappy. I still get anxious and some times when I'm down I feel like I am missing out on the greatest love of my life but I know that I'm not. You were not my greatest love, the first person I have really loved but not the greatest. I am not mad at you and dont love you any more and I am slowly but surely feeling nothing towards you.