Shmiley_Phace

kiss me arrrrsseeee lol

ur disgusting!

i guess i needed to purge you out of my system all at once. im feeling much better now. i do hope youre ok, i hope you change for the better too. not for my sake. i love you, i know i do..even tho everythin you put me through. and now, with these emails and texts that i dont answer - youre also startin to see i was the best girl you ever had. sigh. i hope you and her work out. and i hope me and my guy work out. i miss you. farewell.

i wonder if you're happy, i wonder if you're thinking about me...or if you have any respect for me now...Day 22 - no sign of you. not a word. are you glad i'm out of your life? i hate you for putting me through this when all i did was deal with your bull * * * * ego problems and the degrading way you treated me when you were here. why? i hope you will see clearly one day and realize distance was never an issue with me...your ego and your fidelity was. i hope someday soon you'll realize what kind of a person you really are, and wish you were able to handle the kind of love i gave you - the kind of love you knew you didn't deserve. for hurting me so badly...for being my best friend for 3 years and then disappearing on me, as if everything good i believed in was just a dream, and no one to be found as evidence of it...you shattered it all, and i've got to build myself up alone, while you prance around with Miss Anorexia and her insecurities, her child, her smoking and drinking issues, etc and pretending that is the life you want. You're too old to have such character flaws...and in the end, i still wish i could see you again like i once did...my boo...i just wanna sit there with you and pretend to watch tv when im really just watching you, happy that you're back. i miss your laugh and the way you kissed my neck, the feel of your skin defeats even my weakest memory...i remember how you kissed, or how you'd touch me as if i was made of glass and you didn't want to break me...do you go to buffets and have eating contests with her? lol..do you call her your boo, your cookie? does she listen to you when you need? does she kiss you like she means it, or just needs it? is she as pretty or as morally inclined as me? is she more confident? does she listen and not only hear? does she crave you mentally as she does physically? do you...enjoy...anything...with her? i hope you come back to me and miss me just so i can recover my broken ego - the one person i show myself totally vulnerable walks away for a girl that can't even be compared to me...i'll never understand it. i hope you regret it deeply, because me, and everyone around you knew you would never find anyone better for you... * * * * you, i hate you, i miss you, i loathe you...

in hindsight i can see how everything faded, but i still feel like if i was a better person, better looking , anything, you wouldnt have done this to me. i wish i can go back to the old you, id give up half my life to be that happy. you KNOW we had a connection that was so hard to find, thats the only reason we kept it up...but you stopped wanting it, you nitpicked every bad thing about me and chose a girl who has less going on for her, physically, morally, and success-wise. just because shes a pair of legs?! *sigh*...i wonder if i'll ever see you again...

i hate you and your ho. i hope your hairline recedes faster than it already is you a SS

i want to rip your * * * * ing throat. i feel so goddamn stupid! heres you trying to contact me n begging to talk, setting up fake profiles to see what im upto, and you think im stupid enough to believe your game...and for a split second i was..giving me the impression you were thinking of me, that you wanted to talk, yet the only day you have off, you spend away from me, and most probably with HER!!! you KNEW we'd talk this morning yet you left! and you didnt have the decency to contact me and let me know whats going on??? I HATE YOU! WHY AM I ALWAYS THE ONE TO GET HURT, DONT YOU HAVE ANY IDEA WHAT I DID FOR YOU? i hope you rot in hell you disgusting piece of ****, my feelings are not to be played around with, and if you hold your head so high, i hope you shove it up your girlfriends bony a$$!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! god help you when youre aching for me again and i wont respond to you or your fake profiles you low-life!!

i dont understand you at all...but maybe im complicating you too much. you're just selfish. and you took what was convenient. i know you didn't break up with her. you did it to catch my sympathies; you really think of i'm that stupid? but the fact that you can still play games with me and still try to control me after i knew you slept with her..it's disgusting...what did SHE do to deserve ANY sort of respect?? did she go through even an INKLING of what i did to be with you? SHE DID NOTHING BUT F***! i hate you, i wish i could clean you off my memory for making me so ashamed to call you 'my first love'...

i cant believe you touched her..we've only been off for less than a month, and you've had sex with her already, and still come to me and cry and apologize? i don't know why you're doing this to me, just when i was starting to hate you... if you didn't want her...you wouldn't have done this...why am i still in the picture then? why am i the one always hurting? do you think i actually like to see you cry?? you're still so close to me, more than anyone has or probably could be..and you betrayed me..you have no idea how messed up you've got me. just go f*** her brains out and forget about me so i can move on and know you're a really insecure a**h*le and i won't have to feel...anything..from you...

i don't believe you. you said in the same conversation that you weren't over me completely, and wanted to know what ive been upto, who i've been seeing, etc...and also push me away. you just want the feelings to go don't you..no matter how you feel for me...just because i'm so far away, it hurts too much doesn't it. you still did the wrong thing...and i hope and believe that if you don't realize it already, that you know this new girl is a mistake. she is a one night stand type of girl. if she can break up over arguments with her ex, she'll do the same to you. and you can't hide your past from her. no one can accept you like i did..i know this thoroughly..and will you be able to father her child? i suppose, good luck in all that...it seems i gained much more from our breakup than you ever could... im thinking about you everyday, but now its always thoughts of you and her. my life is getting better and i know this. but you kept me in a dream..i wish i never had to wake up. you made me believe in something almost magical...and i can thank you for it..even if you insult me to this day, and maybe not think a thought of me anymore? i don't know. i love you still, after all you put me through. i never want you back..but i wish i had my old love to re-live, if only for a little while... do you wear my ring? did you take the card out of your wallet? are you ashamed that we were long distance? did i mean anything to you at all? you found someone so quickly, i just don't know what to think. although i can't think highly of you, i try not to do that. baby boo, my fathead. i wish you could call me that again, lol... your cookie.

im effing disgusted by you. the only reason i want u to think of me is so it burns inside realising what you've lost! and im sure as hell ur gf isnt as perfect as u say, we'll see in a few months you no-good a$$! it makes me feel bad when u say that. i did SO MUCH to see u, to defend u in front of my whole community that thought u were trash! and u treat ME like trash??? if ur rele happy u dont need to insult me. i hope u get hurt, i really do, bcuz you deserve it. i hope karma bites your a$$ hard!!!