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So i actually thought about unblocking you today cause i know you will try send me a message but i decided against it. I know its for the best

How can you get over me so quickly and move onto someone else. Then continue to rub it in my face that you have got a new boyfriend. Why can't you leave me in peace to deal with this and get over you. Well at least now I know I did the right thing moving on as you can't have cared that much if you were so easily able to move on so quickly. You will NEVER hear from me again but you continue to message me. Are you just trying to taunt me. I wish I was over you for good.

Can't you just leave me the * * * * alone. You've got a new boyfriend so why do you message me. I want to move on so leave me alone. Go live your own life and let me move on with mine.

Why do I let you get to me like this. Why do I let you bring me down it was a simple comment on my friends fb wall and it teared me apart. God I want to be over you just to move on with my life. I know exactly what I want theres no doubt in my mind but I just can't seem to get my head right to get there. I am glad you have moved on and I hope the new guy does really make you happy

I'm only posting here so I don't contact you. I hate you for making me feel this way. Why can you move on so fast and I can't. You don't love me. You are completely over me. So why can't I be completely over you. I know for a fact you don't love me but I just can't seem to accept it. I've done everything right. Hit up the gym, been catching up with friends, Meditating, Starting new hobbies, Improving myself in everyway possible, talking my issues through. Yet I can't move on, I've got a great support group yet I just can't let go. I HATE YOU

I can't believe you already have a new boyfriend its been less than a month did I really mean that little to you that you can move on from me completely in a month. Grrrrrrrrrrrr I should so be over you now. Not a good morning for me but I know I will keep on going and I know I will move on and I will become who I am meant to become

For some reason I miss you today. I don't understand why its the first time in weeks I've actually missed you. I feel depressed today and I don't know why as I had such a good weekend. I know I never will get back with you but I still miss you. I also know you are completely over me and you don't love me or have any feelings for me at all now but I still miss you. Oh well onwards and upwards. I'm back at the gym and I've lost a lot of weight. Got to keep pushing myself. I want to really succeed and I will just so I can shove it in your face and show you what you lost

I miss our daughter. I realize I will never get to see her again but I still really miss her

Ive come to realise im far to good for you. Thats probably why you worked so hard to get me at the start. How can I possibly respect someone who lies, cheats and is a prostitue. It all makes sense now you put in so much effort at the start.cause you knew I was to good for you and you knew if I discovered the real you I wouldnt want to be with you. I forgive you for all that you have done but could never trust or respect you enough to get back with you again. I thank you for making me a stronger person and for making me want to improve myself to really reach my full potential. Give me two years and see what great strides ive made while you wollow in your anger towards me

* * * * you, you stupid * * * * * how could you go out as a prostitute then lie to my face. Yes I have seen the ad you have up, Yes I have seen how you offer the full girlfriend experience with kissing and BJs and everything else, Yes I do know you were doing this for 3 months before I broke up with you. I can clearly say this is the first time I have actually felt hatred towards you. Just as I thought I was over you and moving on with my life this bombshell hits. When is this going to stop. I can never forgive you for this and the lies that you told me but I know I have to not for you but for me as I have to move on completely and build a better me

No more mopping around. I thank you for showing me the light. I must now use this pain to push harder than i ever have and achieve.more than i ever have before. I will not give in and i will continue to push to achieve what i truly deserve. Time to reinvent my whole life

Why do I have to suffer through so much pain. God I wish I had never met you and we had never been together. I wish I could erase every memory of you and be done with it. Why when I dumped you do I feel so much pain

God I love you so much. Why did you have to be so distant with me, not talk to me and confide in me. I hate this feeling I feel like the bad guy yet I got driven to break up with you. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr I just need to move on

I think today I am starting to give up. Its been tough but just got to keep telling myself 'There is nothing more I can do' Which really is the truth and once I fully accept this I think I will really be able to start to move on

I have done some stupid * * * * . I just wish you could understand what ive bden through. This is so hard I hate yo give excussea but the way my mind works with my abandoment issues and trust issues caused me to do that stupid * * * * . My god I love you and I know you love me but we cant make it work

I know you dont want to talk to me but I love you so much. I miss you like crazy you may never want to talk to me again but I still love yoh. Im sorry for all the hurt ive caused you amd forgive you for any hurt you caused me. My god this is hard.

back to day 0 Had to break NC to sort out a car that she has thats still under my name. It had to be done at some point though

Day 6 Well I only think about her twice a minute now and don't miss her quite so much but now I've fallen into depression

There's a lot of stuff about my past I wished I could have told you to make you understand but I know it would have only bought up things from your past and I couldn't do that to you. You saw my life as perfect when really it was more messed up than yours. At least one thing good did come out of it I am know going for professional help to deal with my past issues

How did you deal with it? I've tried to make myself hate her but I have nothing to go on. I've tried to tell myself that she doesn't love me and doesn't want to be with me but I know she does just can't. Its the knowing you both love and want to be together that's the hardest

I wish you could have said that you didn't love me any more or told me you didn't want us to be together or cheated on me or something to make me hate you. You still said you loved me and wanted to be with me but couldnt. How can I get over you if I know you love me and want to be with me. It just makes it to hard

Day 3 NC (4 weeks after breakup) The longest I've made it so far Don't really feel the need to contact her so much now. Still feel very alone and don't really seem to care about alot now but I know i'm doing the right thing. Have come to the realization that there was nothing I could have done (even though I was the dumper) as it was all on a downward spiral. It does make it a lot easier now she isn't messaging me (even though I sometimes hope she does). I know I'm making progress though when a few weeks ago I couldn't go 4 hours without messaging her I am now up to my 3rd day. Am now trying to love myself again because how can you truly move on if you don't love yourself. The weekends upon me now (and its a busy one) so by the time my next post on this thread comes I should be up to day 6 Congratulations supercalifragilistic on making it to day 30

Why would you say you always wanted us to be together 3 days ago and are we now apart

Day 2 if I can make it through today with NC its the longest so far since I broke up with her a month ago. The mornings and work are the hardest. Haven't had a message from her in the last day. Miss her so much though

Day 1 for me My ex keeps txting me for random things. I've told her I want NC unless she wants to get back together. I've broken every time shes txt me. So I'm now ready to really start NC and not reply unless she really does want to get back together. Going to meet a friend for coffee this evening to help take my mind off things. I think she does want me back but circumstance dictate otherwise so its time to move on and go NC unless she can prove she wants me back