E,
so many times we came to this road. so many times.. I just couldnt do it anymore.
i did everything for you and made each date special for you. you never showed appreciation for it. 2 years and you still couldnt commit.. 2 years. god im so mad at you for it sometimes.. and go ask another guy out to dinner and drinks.. you dont even have a drink with me no even on occasions.. then laugh at me when I try to talk to you about it..
But its ok. I forgive you. you are who you are.. and will always be that person, I realized you are not the girl for me. It hurt so bad to finally realize that.
I told you how special my time was with you, I thanked you for the memories and I wished you the best. I told you that no one else could be like you..and even though i did love and respect you and your personality. it wasnt what was meant for me.. I wasnt happy.. and im sorry
you left and didnt say a word.. a month now and still nothing. It doesnt matter now.
Im moving on from you, Im ready to put it all behind me with no sadness and no regrets. Its ok now
I am ok...and I know you are too
I met you in highschool for 13 years i thought about you, for 2 years we were in love....and the fantasy that you were meant for me was true..but you werent meant as a lover..but a teacher I needed to find you to learn to be where i am now. and ill always be thankfull I took a shot and looked you up.
goodbye sweetness
may your life be filled with the granted dreams.
J