Day 1,
Well, after reading a dozen of these post I realize that I cannot wait anymore. I first read this post yesterday and I said I would join today and honestly I don't want to because I really love him and there are still some ties that I guess I don't want to break but have too. I tired of feeling like this. I went for this mess for three years and now its over. I can't do this anymore so I must make a change starting today. I kept telling myself Queen wait and see if he call back before you accept this challenge, see if you guys will get back together, and etc...but it doesn't matter; nothing matters anymore but me and my wonderful children. Yes, everyone I hate the person he was to me and I hate that I thought for a moment he loved me but I love the person that's accepting this challenge. I don't know what the future holds for me but I am clear on what the past led me. October 19, 2009 at 1:27 p.m. I'm making a promise to myself and everyone on here that I'm done with him and I'm also realizing that he don't and didn't deserve me. I know this will be hard its a challenge but just knowing that there is a lot of support here gives me hope that I'll be OK. So NC challenge here I come!!!