Jake_hope

I forgot how it feels like to interact with you... I can say that after one month no nc, I feel like we are strangers. I don't even remember how my life use to be when we were together... And it's sad.... I'm not sad however... It's just the simple fact that you are somebody I used to know is sad.

It has been 22 days since we last spoke and I was so much in love with you. I brought you into my world, my childhood places and everything I love in Boston. I have Boston, now because everything reminds me of you. The places i haven't brought you yet is also tainted because I always WANTED to bring you there when you visit again. You cheated and for the longest time I thought it was because he was BETTER than me. I learned he is NOT better than me but is a better fit for YOU than me.

I never want you back. I went to a resort today and experienced a lot of new things and I wish I was able to spend it with you. There were so many dreams I has for us and when I experience those dreams without you... It sucks. F you.

I looked at a picture of you today, You have manly hands, your elbows skin is extremely dry, when you smile a certain why your face looks like a hamster. It's funny how when you are not blinded by love, you don't see them as pretty as they used to be.

Must disregard YOU and acquire currency!

Okay, Steps: 1) You lied to me. 2) I neglected you after I gave you another chance. 3) You ended up cheating on me. 4) No matter how bad things were in the LDR, this doesn't give you a warrant to cheat. No person deserves that kind of pain when all they did was love you. 5) Repeats steps 1 - 4 in my head until I feel better.

Setback: I was feeling so awesome last night and today, then I saw a picture of you with your new bf at a bar with his friends. You guys just don't look right together, you are like a girly girl and he is like these big russian rocker dudes. Like seriously? this is what you left me for? Only you can shoot me out of the sky.

The answer to you question is: No.

A truly great post. As I read this I thought about all the good things I have done in the past month. I started working out and eating right, deactivated fb and realized how much time I spent on it, read more, I am more social by attending so many events, potential new job and I am starting to smile. I sat here thinking after this post about how after she lied a year ago, I just doubted her all year long. There were times when I said I am going to marry this girl but at the same time said, im going to make her sign a prenup. I guess I stayed with her because I was too weak and after she cheated, confirmed how I truly felt for her thru my actions in the the last year opposed to my thoughts. It's your loss you immature girl.

Guess what ex, went out tonight and got 2 numbers and met this girl who I knew 3 years ago. Kissed her too. Buahhahahaha

How do you throw a way a 3.5 year relationship for someone you know you will not last with?

You treated me like chop liver when you found someone else, how could you do that to someone you said you loved? You were not the person I made you up to be.

Downloaded a program that blocks websites today, so I can block certain sites you are on. This is the last little bit of you I have left and I am letting you go tonight. Honestly, I can't believe this all happened, 3.5 years and gone just like that. arrge whatever, you are going to get fat anyways with the amount of chocolate you eat.

Love is blind, oh baby, you so blind. I treated you good, I gave you the most memorable of times. When we first met, I blind folded you for 30 mins while I took you to build a bear because you don't have that in your country. I took you on top of a mountain to over see the whole city and I gave you a fairy tale kiss. When you had to fly back to Russia and went to New york for your flight, I chased after you like in the movies when someone goes to the airport. Remember when I couldn't find you in New York and I went down the escalators in that department store and you were standing at the bottom? It was a movie like scene. Then you left and we started out long distance relationship, a year past and I few to Spain to see you while you were studying aboard. Never traveled international before, I took a chance to go somewhere I can't even speak the language. It was in Spain that I was completely hopeless. To not be able to speak a single thing of spanish and to a city I have never been before, I put all my hope in your hands. You guided me thru Spain and we had a wonderful time. It was in Spain that I told you I love you. "Let me paint this picture for you, baby You spend your nights alone and he never comes home and every time you call him all you get a busy tone I heard you found out that he's doing to you what you did to me ain't that the way it goes you cheated girl my heart bleeded girl so it goes without saying that you left me feeling hurt just a classic case a scenario tale as old as time girl you got what you deserved."

I saw a picture of you today, looks like you got an ugly blister on your lip. Herpes? Lol.