Okay, I have done completely the opposite of everything that I should have been doing. I have been completely pathetic -- emailing and texting him -- I even broke down and called him tonight to wish him a happy new year (since he will be out with his new love tomorrow night) -- I rationalized it by saying that's what a "friend" would do. But, of course, he hasn't called back.
I can't hurt any more than I do right now. So, I am going to start the new year off clean -- as of right now I am officially on the NC bandwagon!
