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  1. digitaldiva
    DAY 11 My life is falling apart. I think this is one of the only relationships I will truly regret forever. The guilt of doing so many things wrong is seriously killing me. Job is falling apart too. He tried so hard to make it work between us and I just argued so much and acted such an a** on many things.
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    Day 10 I thought of calling a second ago. He's back in town. I grabbed the phone.... My stomach started to churn, I felt dizzy, my mouth is dry, and I'm sweatin.... Good reason, not to call, amongst the other obvious reasons... Wish I had some sleeping pills. I still can't get to sleep. I want to shut off these feelings for him. I want to NOT want him anymore. 1 more hour and it will be 11 days of NC. I wonder if he's smooth sailing....
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    Do you remember the post I sent to you a week ago when I told you he will call you?? I'm going to tell you AGAIN... He's going to call back. Especially since he thinks that you two have sort of "made up"..... Let's Be Strong...
  4. digitaldiva
    Why is it so dang hard?? I'm thinking of calling my ex right now and I'm sweatin' thinking about. He called during Thanksgiving and I didn't answer nor return his call. I was with family and didn't want to get all emotional. thereforee, he may not be so nice when I call him.
  5. digitaldiva
    DAY 10.... ...**shudders**
  6. digitaldiva
    We broke up on Oct 18th.... Went NC for about 10 days. Back in touch in Nov a few times, now I've gone NC again. It's been extremely LC. Why do you ask?
  7. digitaldiva
    I think we want to take the advice. But when we see the one we love, we get emotional. The emotion clouds our judgement then we react irrational. I wouldn't say they are a waste of money. I may not have made a lot of the good choices I made in my relationship if I wouldn't have read them. The relationship would have fizzed out long ago.
  8. digitaldiva
    I bought so many relationship books after this break. I don't think I can buy anymore. Did you buy it? Did it work? I think I love him so much I'm going to have to let him go. I can't imagine having a buddie friend dinner with him when he knows in his mind that we will NEVER get back together.
  9. digitaldiva
    I think I may need to leave e-notalone for a while. I'm not sure if it helps with issues pertaining to the ex or just fuels the flames....
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  11. digitaldiva
    Great Thread...
  12. digitaldiva
    I'm not sure why they get so much more painful, but they do. When my ex and I first broke up, I was devastated. But a week later I was working out, hanging out. He called for dinner. I felt confident and happy to see him. After I saw him, it all came crashing down. On the next date I asked to get back together. He said NO and I haven't been able to get myself back since..... Of course I broke all "the rules".
  13. digitaldiva
    I'm very sorry you're having to go through this.
  14. digitaldiva
    I'll admit. I haven't completely let go. I've gone Full NC. It won't be as easy when I get back home. I'm with family for the holidays, but I live alone. It makes me feel so WEAK not to be able to talk to him! Maybe I should tell him so he won't think I'm punishing him. Work isn't going so well right now and I've also been slacking on my activities. Once these things come back into full swing and my confidence comes back, we MIGHT be able to converse again. I really don't want him completely out of my life, but I just can't do it right now.
  15. digitaldiva
    That's what I needed to hear tonight. OMG....
  16. digitaldiva
    DAY 7 I had an anxiety attack the other night. Chipped my tooth, bruised my arms and back. I'm thinking of going on Anti-depressants. I had a really bad reaction to them about 5 years ago so I'm scared. He called on Thanksgiving to say Happy Thanksgiving. He emphasized that he was JUST calling to say Happy Thanksgiving. I've powered off my cell phone. Every time it rings I hope that it's him.
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    DAY 5 I think it gets worse before it starts to get better right? This morning was terrible. I didn't think not being with him on Thanksgiving would affect me since I've never really shared Thanksgiving with a boyfriend. I still feel extremely guilty about many things in our relationship. I still feel like I ruined something that could have been wonderful. Please tell me I won't feel like this on DAY 30. I'm considering moving to New Orleans. My sister lives there.
  18. digitaldiva
    He's going to call. I dated a guy similar to yours. They feel like they have you wrapped around their fingers. Be strong when it happens.
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    I just purchased it on link removed
  20. digitaldiva
    Day 4 I wonder if he really feels that it's completely over.
  21. digitaldiva
    Day 3 Why is it that after they reaffirm that they don't want to be with you any longer it's even harder to move on again? Today, I'm trying the whole positive thinking thing. I'm a good person. What makes you good? I'll find someone better.. Good luck and make sure you realize what you did wrong in the last relationship. Speaking of your last relationship... You remember when you were drunk and started arguing in the parking lot? You shouldn't have done that. You'd probably be married by now if you had communicated better... I know...
  22. digitaldiva
    Day 2 It's not hard not to contact him b/c I know he does not want to hear from me AT ALL. Just hard knowing that on our last conversation, I pushed him even farther away by talking about the breaking and being sad. I'm sure he would have called me and even made plans to do things if I wouldn't have been so pushy on the last conversation.
  23. digitaldiva
    I'm seriously back this time. DAY 1 Today was horrendous. Yesterday he told me that we will NEVER get back together and I need to move on. I was going to try Sparkie's technique of Getting your Lover back but I folded and ended up asking him to come back. If they feel like they only option they have is to come back or not talk to you again. They will usually choose the latter. I'm having a hard time NOT beating myself up about this relationship. I don't want to say that I just won't do certain things next time. I want to be able to not do certain things and be comfortable with it in my heart and actions, not because I'm following some dating rule.
  24. digitaldiva
    Are you trying Sparkie's approach?
  25. digitaldiva
    You could create an e-mail filter to forward his messages to the trash can.
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