Tyler82

Day 2. Feeling ok today. I had to start over after a bunch of emails over the weekend and Monday morning. So yesterday was my first full day of NC. Time to get back on track.

crab, Day 10. Good job! Glad you resisted the urge to call lastnight. I want to see you posting on here on day 15 when you break your record! Today is Day 1 of NC for me. I had a alot of discussion via email with the ex last Friday which continued through the weekend. She had sort of gave me hope a bit, although I dont know if she meant to. But Sunday she said she really wants to help me move on and maybe I need to hear a few things to help with that. She basically spelled it out that she cant come back. She cares about me deeply but cant go back. I was a wreck on Sunday and posted on my thread on ENA. I hadnt felt that bad since the break up. It was painful and aweful. Monday we chatted a bit more and she told me that if I wanted to grab a coffee to talk about us so that she can maybe help me move on she would be willing to. I told her thanks but that would be worse and that I have to go back to NC. She said she would try not to contact me for 2 weeks until she returns our dog to me. Yes we are still shairng. Ill post about that in my thread. So long story short, today is day 1 again. I made it to day 17 before. I can do it agian. I feel alot better today than I did Sunday night.

Day 16. Feeling blah. Sad. I posted a lengthy one in my thread below.

Day 15.......sort of. I made it 14 days with No Contact. On Day 11 she text me to say sorry but she keeps calling me with her speed dial and that she hopes I am well. I had no missed calls so I wasnt sure what that was about. I didnt respond. Then on Day 14 she text me in the evening to ask if the things I left behind in the storage locker were things I wanted or things for her to throw away. I ignored this as I already told her roomate weeks ago that I dont need it. Then an hour later another text saying please just write me back and let me know. I didnt respond Then another half hour she calls. I let it go to voicemail. Then I listened. She said sorry for getting angry and that fighting with me is the last thing she wants to do. She asked if I could just let her know what I want her to do with the items in storage and that she found a few things in the condo when she was packing up and made up a bag of things for me. She also said she hoped my new place is nice and that she heard it was froma mutual friend. Finally asked when we could meet up so she could take our dog for a few weeks. I decided to wait until this morning before I replied about the items in storage. That way she didnt get a response right away and know that I am right there waiting for her. So this morning i text her that she can toos whatever is in storage and that i told her roomate this a few weeks ago. I told her my car was full and I couldnt take anymore and had to leave some things i didnt want behind. I didnt address the dog thing yet. So I replied with one little text on the morning of Day 15. I know I have to engage in contact with her over her picking up our dog. She will be taking her for 2 weeks and then when I get her back I will be telling her that I have decided to keep the dog. I have already decided this but will let her have the dog one last time since we raised it together. Anyways that a separate story. So day 15 i guess. I dont know. If she pushes me for an answer about picking up the dog then ill respond to get it over with. As soon as she gets her its NC again until I get her back.

Day 12 for me. She text me lastnight. It was the first contact from her since I started NC 12 days ago. The last message from her was asking how my new place was and how the dog liked it. I didnt reply and started NC. Well lastnight she text me this: "Sorry I keep calling you with my speed dial in case you are wondering. Hope you are well" I didnt receive any calls from her as I checked my cell. Not sure if she was trying to find a way to contact me without really breaking NC. Or if she was in fact hitting her speed dial but managed to hang up before it rang on my end but not knowing that. What do you guys think. I didnt respond. I dont want to break NC. The text caught me completely by surprise lastnight. I was driving to hockey and opened my phone to see her name on my screen. Im just lucky I was almost at hockey otherwise I may had responded. Do you think she was really speed dialing me by mistake and thought I was receiving missed calls? Or do you think she was just trying to find a way to conact me? Man I dont need this right now.

fiffy we are mirriorng eachother arent we. Congrats on Day 11.

awakeintx, Dont beat yourself up. You broke contact. Who cares! You allowed yourself to take something from the conversation. Now today is a new day. A new beginning and a fresh chance to start NC again. Now you know for sure that there is no hope for you two. Use that to better yourself and focus on what matters to you. You made it to Day 9 once so you can do it again. Only this time you know that breaking NC will not change the situation. Good luck to you and keep you chin up. It may be Day 1 again, but its the first day to a brand new life!

Day 11 today Had a bit of a stepback lastnight. Started missing her like crazy and was really down. I didnt contact her though. I knew it wouldnt do any good. I feel better this morning. Ive been playing alot of hockey as Ive joined a few additional teams that my friends play on. So I feel energized and in shape and good about myself. I know I will think about her for a while still. But Im learning to deal with the thoughts. Lastnight was a slip up. It hurt. But I got through it and today is a brand new day. Hello Day 11 of NC!

Day 10 today. Congrats fiffy. We both made it to double digits! I cant believe I am here. But when I look back at how I felt before I started NC, I start to smile. I have come so far in 10 days. Mind you, I am not anywhere near feeling healed at all, but definitely better than I was before NC.

Capiccino, stay strong and stay NC! You know that you will not get the answer you are looking for by talking to him. The first few days are going to be tough. Do you best to keep busy and to avoid contacting him. I know how you feel. Im on day 9 and I still have urges. But I know she isnt going to come back to me if I call her. Keep posting on here whenevr you feel the urge. Let all your feelings out and the ENA forum will help you the best we can. Good luck. Hope to see you tomorrow at day 4!

Ya thats tough about the gym. I hope you work something out. Talk to you soon Crab62. Keep that NC up! Day 10 is a great accomplishment!

Thats crazy. An 8 day bike tour! Congrats on Day 10. Looks like you are one day ahead of me. Not sure what you can do about the gym thing though. Does your gym have other locations you can change to? It sounds like we are going through a simlar process right now. Feel free to PM me if you need to get anything off your chest. Its really nice to come onto ENA and find people like you who are going through similar things. My ex left me out of the blue as well. I didnt see it coming. And the day of she was telling me how she wants to buy and flip houses with me one day. I couldnt believe it. Thats also why it took me so long to start NC. It took awhile to accept that the relationship is over.

Sounds like you are pretty active. Thats good. Ive always been active but found myself pushing it that extra step since the break up. Working out to make yourself look good makes youfeel good. It also a good way to get out all that anger and frustration you may have built up inside. I know thats why I started at first. I felt so much pain from her leaving me that I had to get rid of it. And if I wasnt playing hockey I would just start doing sit ups and push ups until I couldnt any more. I would feel tired but relieved. Glad to see you are keeping busy too. How many days NC are you now? Im on day 9 and feeling alot better than I was 2 weeks ago.

crab62, I dont do alot of running. I play hockey 3 times a week which keeps me in good shape. I started running here and there since the break up but have mostly just been doing sit ups and push ups every morning. I was a big runner back in grade school and high school though. I used to run cross country and track. Mostly long distance running. The Chicago and NYC marathons must have been pretty amazing. Good for you. By the way, I was in Chicago for my second time this past May. I absolutely love that City. Its my favorite US City ive been to so far.