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i'm taking the total nc challenge. i haven't spoken to my ex since early in the week (and i'm not counting days any more!).... but now i'm totally serious about it. i finally REALLY did it... he's blocked from fb, every im service, and i deleted him from my phone. before, when i did the nc, i peeked at his online stuff. i'm done with that, though. i need to get over it for me and watching his messages just makes me feel worse. every moment he isn't online, i imagined him partying and having sex with super models. every moment he was online, i hated him for not bothering to talk to me. too much drama when we didn't even have contact! superdave... this one's for me, but dedicated to you (because it's your idea). from this moment forward, i will have no contact with my ex, not even virtual peeking. thank you to all of you faceless friends who have listened to my most personal and intense feelings at a time when i felt the lowest. your advice, your stories, your wisdom, and your concern have helped me more than you know.

i keep reading and re-reading super dave's words. i want so much to be over this, but i want him back with everything. he is pushing to try to be best friends immediately and keeps saying, what we had was toxic, i can't promise you anything in the future, but we have to get back to being friends to see if we can have anything. it's like he flipped a switch and friended me and i'm still reeling and want him back. do people ever get back together like this?

Are there rules to NC aside from NC? Do people set boundaries with this? Does it need to be announced, or just done?