BU happened on Feb. 16. Tried talking it out for a couple weeks. Went NC for a bit. She needed help with something and I did help her. Went LC and now it's time to be back in NC.
Day 1 - I need to cut it all for the my own sake. I'm stringing myself along. She made her decision, it's time to not spend another drop of energy/thought on her for any reason. I'm afraid she'll be the most attractive woman I'll ever date. She was a model and sexy as all get out. I know it seems superficial, but I value having an attractive partner. She was the first girl who surpassed my expectations for physical attractiveness, if only her communication had been up to snuff. A girl I was starting to hang out with friendzoned me, which was a little bummer, but I knew it wouldn't have worked out anyways, she didn't have the right personality, it would have been more of an ego boost for me is all. I guess I feel good being desired or having a girl interested in me. I wish I didn't need that, but right now it's about the only thing that makes me feel good.
