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mcgirl

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  1. I've been wanting to contact you for the last few days, wanting to share stuff thats gone on in my life, stuff that would make you smile - but I stop myself b/c you probably wouldn't respond. For the last 6 weeks when we were together - you didn't respond to anything I shared with you - so why on earth would I expect you to respond now???? Your big gripe about me was that I wanted "more" and you would not give me "more". I wanted "more attention than you were willing to give me". How in the bleep is wanting a reply to a txt or an email from my b/f of 8 mos "more"??? How is wanting to spend some time - not all the time - just some time - during the week and weekend with my b/f "more"??? How is wanting my b/f to remember he has a g/f when he's making his week/weekend plans and thinking she may want to be involved or at least know what was up "more"??? I've racked my brain with all the "how's" and "why's" about things not working out between us. I can come up with tons of possible legitimate reasons. But you know what, at the end of the day it just comes down to you not wanting me/us anymore. You can project it on me all you want - me wanting "more" BS. But lets just be honest here...you didn't want me anymore so you stopped trying. You know whats sad though? If you were sitting here next to me right now, we'd be having a good time. Watching TV, talking about stuff, snuggling. When we did spend time together - it was great. Problem was, that was happening less and less. It irritates the bleep out of me that I still hope that things can work out between us. I think to myself if you'd only do those little things, treat me like you did the first few months....you can be that way if you want to... if only.... But I know deep down "if only" is just wishful thinking and this is how its going to be. It's your loss I keep telling myself. Hopefully soon I will believe it 100%.
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