Day 3 for Dave's Challenge, but actually day 11 NC!
Had a really hard day today. I will never call/text/send letter or nothing like that, but I still think of her everyday. It's not as often, but it's when I do think of her, it's very strong thoughts . . ! I am afraid now, that, although it will never happen, if she does call, for some odd reason, will I be able to not answer the phone or text back. Will I be strong and stick to my NC. It has been 11 days since NC, and I wonder what she is thinking? Is she wondering why I haven't tried to bug her, lol? Is she thinking WOW, he's serious this time? Is she starting to think, I miss the good times? Or is she not thinking about me at all, and is glad not to hear from me anymore. ( too funny ) I don't know, the latter is probably true. Time will tell, anyways it just seems like yesterday that I made my last contact, but has been almost 2 weeks, in a couple days. Why is the memory of our last contact so clear and detailed to me, like it just happened minutes ago? Must be the re-living it, thing.
hang in there all!