Did I mention that I'm taking up this challenge? Except my plan is for six months, but 30 days is just the beginning. Today is day three of not seeing my ex. Should have been day four, but he showed up outside my work during lunch the day after I told him we couldn't hang out or talk anymore.
So, I have been dealing with this seperation for four months now, so I assume Ive progressed to a different stage than a lot of you, although I find that my healing process has been more of a complicated dance of push and pull between me and my ex. I'd gladly be pulled in...if he didn't have a girlfriend.
Today I woke up and I felt one major thing: resentment. The one thing I did NOT want to feel when I walked away from this. So, I'm not having sobbing breakdowns or depressed days in bed (I've already done both of those months ago), but today I feel anger. I feel a constant urge to call his present gf to tell her that he's been cheating on her for months, and how she should think about how she feels about that before moving in with him in September.
I'm not liking this feeling. I was happier acknowledging we may never get back together, knowing that he probably WILL end up crawling back to me, and excusing his cheating/lying behaviour because he "must be confused".
So to sum it up, I feel resentment and anger. And though I felt really happy the last few days because he has not called or shown up at my work or home, I realize now that it's because he is out of town for a wedding.
I'm still on "getting back together" post because I'm sure the dance will continue and at some point my anger will subside.