darkplace

5 weeks of NC. I keep seeing the occasional update on facebook, he is now friends with such and such and there where a few photos he was tagged in at some crap party. He was online the same time as me for a few mins a few days ago. I held myself in and didnt contact. I keep trying to think 'he's an *** he's an ***'. Before me he was just bedding anyone for a week, along comes me the only long term relationship hes ever had. Then PUUF! its over. When he hits 30 in 2 yrs time thats going to shock him. My mission in life now is to snag as many cute guys a possbile and give them a time to remember lol And this capoeira thing is helping me meet lots of them!

I wish, i wish I cry, i cry i live only to die never will i know happyness again the love of another i cherish the thoughts and time past take me back, take me back alone now i see nothing i hear only my heart it dies with every beat weaker i become i welcome pain, death, the night it closes in, slowly i breath my last the pills numb the pain eternal sadness and remorse forever I wish, i wish I cry, i cry i live only to die

PM me back when your ready, really would like to talk about stuff

those poems touched me, my sister wrote some similar like those a while ago it helps to write stuff down what your feelings are. are you ok, whould you like to talk about what they mean ?