tikkii

For goodness sake, exercise a bit of will power. You're either committed or not. If not, finish things and have your fun then. You can't have your cake and eat it.

The holiday I paid for and you said you'd pay me back, can I have that back The birthday you never bought a gift for, said it was setback Can I have that back The Valentines night, when I had to pay for my own dinner can I have that back, or were you again the winner Since we met, September 2005, I can begin to deduct how much you made me pay for, while you lived it up Those years, all two and half of feeling like a doormat Can I please have them all back

It's exactly two months today Since you walked in the door so late that night I ran to hold you, you pushed me away I knew immediately something wasn't right The lies that ensued hurt more than the crime Deception and dodging insulting me more I knew I'd find truth in a matter of time There it was impossible to ignore I'd moved to another country for you Left a good job, independence behind Given up my life, everything I knew Within six months you'd robbed me blind You left me no choice but to leave in a rush I grabbed what I could, barely enough Now I live in a room, not fancy, not plush While you enjoy the luxury of all my stuff I'll hate you forever for how you treated me I was a very good person, someone to trust Now I'm numb, broke and just completely empty But at least now I can put myself first