Wow, I had just recently broke NC about a week ago after 6 days and now I wish I didn't. Breaking NC allowed me to find out some of those un-answered questions that we're always running through my mind, and in a way I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. At the same time, I ended up with a broken phone (out of his jealous rage he decided since he couldn't look through my phone, he'd break it) and still nothing.
This thread was definetly something I needed to kick start my NC, I realize he needs his space & I need time to really figure out who I am. This time around starting NC I feel better than ever. I refuse to beg for someone who blantantly disrespects me and doesn't care enough to change. Though it will be hard because I am so used to his warmth, and him being around .. I know what has to be done & best of all it can't possibly get any worse than it is now if I just leave!
