NC for 2 weeks now but ex emailed two days ago, said he's leaving for Canada for business (and kind of busy) and he kept some of my mails (we used to live together) on the desk.
Went to pick up the mails, and looked for a CD there. (I wouldn't go into the bedroom otherwise) Found his new girl's (actually his ex 6 years ago) clothes everywhere in my (oh...used to be my...) closet. I guess she came to visit from Europe. (She just broke up in March) Well, it's fair since we've broken up...he has the right to date anyone he likes.
But I still feel terrible about it. I cried, couldn't help it. It sucks to feel that you are replaced by someone else so soon...I wondered how they could have sex on this bed that we assembled together and we lied together just 3 months ago. (even the sheets are not changed) Everything in this apartment is full of memories for me(...guess he didn't feel anything anymore...) Apparently he tried to hide my personal belongings since she's here. (He could've told me to clean those stuffs...but instead he packed them in a dirty box...) The fact is sad but hey, I've got a chance to avoid seeing all these if I moved all my stuffs in the beginning and started NC right away. This is just all so ugly now... I even feel my good memories with him are covered by some dust now...
All I want to say is, when there is no love, things can turn very ugly. And YOU are actually the third person... not the new girl/guy since you are out of this game of love...sigh...
It's cruel but kind of helps me to cut my hopes sooner, I guess...
For those who want to get back with ex,,,well,,,since my ex did get back with his ex now...so...nothing is impossible (he broke up with her 6 years ago and knew me for 3.5 years (almost 3 years relationship) and we moved in together for 1.5 years)
kind of rediculus, I was the one who wanted to "get back" with ex, but he's the one who did it...