I am the oldest of 2 in my family...and I believe a fair bit of the blame rests on my parents shoulders; mainly my mothers. She was one of those moms who, whenever a girl came over, she would always be up in my face once my friend left about: how long i've known them, am i dating them or not...etc...: It was her intrusive and defensive nature which made me really...not want to really have a relationship. And because I never really made any attempt what so ever to date/ask girls out, I got caught up in the loop of them only EVER being my friends.
I am 19 years old, and I asked my parents if I could have a house party, they agreed, then I asked my mom if it would be ok if people could crash here for the night so no one would like have to drive home drunk. And her response was "As long as none of them are girls." I could have slapped her. Her "logical" way of thinking was that she didn't want people sleeping together...I immediately replied with "So what you want me to say to my male friends who are passed out 'ya you can stay', but tell my female friends they have to leave?". I talked her out of her insanity...but still. At 19.. come on...
I love talking to girls and shooting the fly with them, but anything more...intimate...I like clam up. and my logical thinking for it is because ive forced my self not to have real interaction with girls in highschool and now im paying for it...
Thanks mom...
