This doesn't make sense. Things seemed to be going fairly well between my boyfriend and I. We were together for just over a year. Then on Friday he said that we should just be friends.
I don't know what to do, all I want is him back. I've had my heart broken before a few times, but its NEVER hurt like this. I can't listen to music. I've only eaten two graham crackers in 50hrs (i have no hunger no will to eat and the thought of food makes me nauseaus), I've lost interest in photography (a beloved hobby), I'm losing my will to live.
The decision doesn't feel right.
I'm so confused. I don't feel like he's given me the whole picture as to WHY he thinks things are better this way. I don't know if he's just trying to trick himself.
Even the day before we were talking about Sweden and hypotheically if he'd stay there; he said of course he'd bring me along. Then things suddenly change the next day?!
How can things even change so much since Valentines day when he gave me a lovely card and wrote Lots of Love xoxoxoxoxo ?
I don't know what to do. All I want to do is have him back.
I've barely been able to pause from crying since it happened. And when I cry its the kind of crying that's like I've lost a huge part of my soul and I have a hard time standing because my whole being is hurting SO much.
What do I do?
I want him back, but I don't want to screw things up.
Every fiber of my being wants to be with him, and that if this is really the end between us, I need him to help me through it.
I feel like I've almost lost the will to live.
