Hi. I am 21 years old and male and have always been confused about my sexuality. I have dated women but i have never been really into it.
Everytime i have a crush on a guy, it seems as if nobody i like is interested in a same sex relationship at all. My gaydar is completely messed up. I can't find anybody that will make me happy.
How am I supposd to figure myself out if i never have the chance to be with someone of the same sex.
It doesnt help that i have low self esteem. To many i am not ugly, but i dont see myself the way they do. I usually blame myself and the way i look for the reasons why nobody wants to be with me. I am very well liked though. Its jsut something i always do. I am very slim, and usually when i feel alone i stop eating a lot and i run. Actually today i ran 5 miles just so i can make my face appear slimmer so people might think im more attractive.
I dont want to hurt myself over finding somebody and i need help and guidance. :sad:
