2bMRSG07

I can totally understand. I felt that way after my ex and I broke up. I wanted him to hurt so bad in anyway possible. He was in another state so I really couldnt do anything. It was only that which prevented me from acting up. Since this is your first offense you wont have to serve any jail time. They will hit you with a restraining order and that should be about it. After that PLEASE leave him alone, I know that it is hard. I know because I am in that kind of pain now, but for your sake you have to leave him alone. He isnt worth ruinning your life over. You are blessed to not have any other scars but a broken heart. Take that as a gift!

I am very new to this forum, but I totally need it I am at the end of my rope. I was engaged to the love of my life until December 2006. The wedding was set and completely planned for July 7th 2007. It was too be perfect. Until he ran into money problems in november and completely changed. He stopped talking to me and I had no idea as to why until December 12 I stumbled upon an online diary and this woman was describing my fiance too the letter. I knew it was him so I wrote her and explained that I was his fiance and had been for the past 3 months. She wrote me back telling me how she wasnt going to let him go, and that she was in so many words- content to share him with me. Well I talked to him and it was true the love of my life was having an affair with a woman who i knew to be his ex. An ex he was no longer involved with. At the time I was furious... I told him he was dead to me and blocked any contact with him. At the time all i could see was my hurt and that he had been such an . Later the other woman contacts me- after searching the net for me, to tell me that she is praying for "our baby" meaning "our man" That was a major slap in the face I WONT EVER SHARE A MAN! She believes that we can share a man. That hurt so bad. Through that I discovered that they are now in a relationship. Fast foreward from the day that it was over til now... I am finding it hard to get out of bed. I cant cry its just absolutely the most painful experience i have ever had to experience. See now the hate and sheer anger is gone. Now I miss the man I made the promise to Marry and spend the next 70 years with. I miss our inside jokes, the way he looked at me, the way he made me feel. HE WAS ONE OF THE BIGGEST PARTS OF MY WORLD AND THE HIGHLIGHT OF MY FUTURE. Now i walk around in love with a man I have no contact with, who is with another woman