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  1. finalcloud13
    Day 4 Got a message from ex saying thank you for my birthday gift, which was received 4 days ago. She said she's saying thank you a second time because the first time it was not her, but her boyfriend impersonating you saying thank you. Tough, but I didn't reply. If she didn't mention her boyfriend, I probably would have gave in and replied.
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    I admit that I'm keeping my status on Appear Offline on WLM (Windows Live Messenger) for conflicting reasons; If I appear offline to her, she won't message me, then it'll be a bit easier to do NC since I won't have to respond to her. However, at the same time I'm really hoping that I'm making her miss me not being around to message at her leisure, so that if I ever do switch my status to Online, she'll be all trying to message me =( Of course, it doesn't even mean anything if she messages me, it just makes me happy that she wants to talk to me (Which I know I'm overanalyzing that her wanting to talk to me = she likes me). So I don't know why I can't get rid of that false logic.
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    I'm on Day 3 now. I want to sign on to Windows Live Messenger and set my status as Online instead of Appear Offline, so that my ex can see I'm online, so that she'll hopefully message me or something > Still, I'm not liking this growing distant from her. I wish there was another way.
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    LOL again, I don't know why, but I found myself laughing very hard at your post...
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    I'm sorry, but that made me laugh really hard, I don't know why. It's strangely hilarious.
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    Hello, I've tried NC about 3 times or so in the past, and one of them didn't last even a day, and the other two lasted a week. I think it's time for me to give it another go. I know I'll be failing a lot so I'll probably be posting here a lot, hope you don't mind. Well then, today is Day 2. Go me :S
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    The first time I'll see her is in June, because she invited me to her high school graduation. I already told her I'll go, so I guess that's one reason why I don't want to give in just yet. I want to see what she is like in person, and how things feel. I feel like real closure and accepting the reality can only come for me from actually seeing it in reality. Does this make sense?
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    Hello again, all. Here's the layout (I am S, my ex is L, and my ex's current boyfriend is J): L and J were originally together. They broke up. I don't know when or why. L and I (S) got together. L and J still talked a lot together. I never knew he was her ex, because she never told me. She told me everyone she's been with before, but strangely, has left J out. Anyway, L dumped me (S) and got back together with J. L and J for the first time meet in real life. They live 2 hours apart. I (S) am green with envy. I want to meet her real life, too. I live 8 hours away. L and J are now together for the 2nd time twice as long as L and I (S) were together. L is going to UC Davis, and I (S) am going to UCLA. I am more farther apart now. J, luckily, is still close to L. UC Davis is not far from San Francisco. Lucky guy. It seems that I am doomed, right? Not only has she been with him longer, but she also knows him in real life so he must be much more significant than I am. We are also going to separate colleges on the opposite ends of California, so wow, so much for any type of plan of seeing her in real life and trying to attract her that way. J is also 3 years older than L and I (S) and the older guys always seem to win. They're just more attractive somehow, I guess. Shoot. But, sadly, even with these dauntingly slim odds, I still can't throw in the towel. It's krazi-glued onto my hand.
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    I hear you. I actually was going to the gym, but I kind of slacked off and eventually quit after the breakup. I don't really want to go either. Nowadays I am very busy with classes; I no longer have time to play basketball either. Being outside does take my mind a bit off of my ex, but she invades my mind constantly. In class, during the drive to class, during breaktime from class, but most of all, when I am at home, alone. It feels pretty much like it does not matter how okay I am during the day when I am out and stuff because I eventually come home and all thoughts and memories come to me. It has been 4 months since, and I improved a little, I feel it. However, it feels like this is the limit to how much I can heal and that happiness will only come back to me once I am back with her. I may attempt an NC. So far as my ex knows, we are friends. I did tell her before that I like her, so I think she still knows that. So with that, should I inform her that I will NC or not? I don't want her to misunderstand the reason I am ignoring her.
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    Thank you for the reply. I am at a stage where I am still hurting, but no longer make it obvious to my ex. I just feel really uneasy about the idea of liking anyone else. My ex is #1 to me. However, I should and will put the effort to at the least be cheerful and optimistic and try not to think of her and her boyfriend so much.
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    Does this advice go for both if the ex does and doesn't have someone else? Because, I can do the acting happy all the time but I can't seem to flirt with others or anything like that. It's a subtle attempt of telling them that I'm faithful and my love for them will not falter whether I can be with them or not. What should I do?
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    I'm very happy for you, but I couldn't help but notice that the quoted sentences seem a bit contradictory. If things are back to the way they used to be, doesn't that mean it's the same pattern as before? Be careful.
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    Okay, thanks for all of your help. Thank you everybody that replied.
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    So all in all, we must not be controlled by our raging emotions and try to listen to and understand our ex?
  15. finalcloud13
    Thank you for the reply. I understand a little better now.
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