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Yes and no. I think it's hot. But it turns me on too, which isn't a bad thing, but I'll probably want something out of it and sometimes the guy doesn't.

I know exactly what you're going through because i'm going through the exact same thing. I poke fun at my boyfriend all the time, we've almost been going out for six months already and i'm surprised he's still dating me. I even call him fat. I feel terrible every time I do it and i always tell myself it wont happen again and i should be nice. I've even tried to talk to him about it. I've asked him why he's going out with me when i treat him so bad. and he just tells me he loves me. it's kind of like an out of body experience isnt it? like you're watching yourself say these things and you dont know what to do to stop it. Well there is something you can do. just talk to him about it.Try telling him that you don't want to treat him this way and if it bothers him, then tell him to tell you that every single time.