AreUHappyNow

I think i genuinely don't find him attractive. I think if me and my ex had never have happened i still wouldn't find this guy attractive. What's worrying me though is that i'm never going to move on, because the closer i get to doing that, the more i miss my ex. Maybe i should take a chance on this new guy and see if feelings develop? I dont know I'm so confused right now. I think it certainly would just be a rebound though, but maybe in the long run it would help me. Saying that i really do not want to hurt this guy, because i really care about his feelings and i don't want him to feel like i am now.

I broke up with my first love about a month ago. I've been getting on OK, trying to keep myself busy etc I've had my ups and downs, still finding it hard to let him go, as i was absolutely besotted with him. I don't know why because he didnt treat me all that good but anyway... I recently got talking to someone new, he seemed nice, sweet, genuine, decent all the things you could wish for right? He's made it obvious that he has feelings for me, we got chatting and flirting. I thought everything was starting to look up, things were beginning to fix themselves. Only thing is, i met him and do not find him attractive at all Worse thing is, this has made me think about my ex even more, and see him as the "perfect person" and the only person i'll ever truly love. Gah, why can't i get over him?

I broke up with my first love 2 weeks ago, although it feels like he's broken up with me. He started drinking alcohol and his priorites changed from us to spending nights out drinking with his friends and going to parties. We began arguing constantly, and after 2 years, decided on a split. I thought I'd cope fine. But my appetite has completely vanished, i can't put food in my mouth without heaving. I'm always checking his darn myspace! He's already showing interest in one particular girl and it looks as though they'll both be together soon. I wish i could move on, i reallywant to. But i find myself constantly sitting up at night with him on my mind. The thought of him with another girl makes me feel physically sick. I wish i could get him out of my head!!!! It's like a drug. I feel like i've forgotten who i really am and just feel like this crazy woman! I'm too embarrassed to seek professional help, but i really can't cope in this state of mind. It's been NC now for 1 week and i'm soooo tempted to text him, it's insane! Any ideas?