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Thank you, I am planning on calling the Dr. today so that I have someone to talk to. I am giving it time but I find that I become more bitter and feel more hate every day. It is affecting all aspects of my life and I need some relief. I have always been very tough and just can not get over this. Thank you again.

Hello- I am 38. We are going to have a paternity test done but the Dr. told us when the child was conceived. It makes sense due to ovulation and the night in question and all. I so very much want it to be my child you know? We go for the first ultra sound next week. We will know how old baby is then. I can't even believe this is happening to me! I am a wreck. I can't sleep or eat and I have these real bad pictures running through my head all the time. I hear what you all are saying but I really do love her. This is so difficult. I have been through two major conflicts in the military and nothing has ever been so difficult. I am not a p***y or anything, I just truly gave my heart and everything else freely to someone and now I feel very alone and totally crushed.

Hello all- I have never been a member of a forum until now. I have a story to tell and am looking for advice because I am lost and bitter and heart broken. I separated from my wife of 11 years almost a year ago. Due to her lack of common sense, she got herself into a bit of a legal snag. To make a long story short we can not be divorced until her legal issues are solved. My story is not about her however. I met someone who became my best friend and eventually my lover. I now know that I have never truly been in love before due to the way I feel for her. I have given her everything I can and do everything I can for her. We moved in together 8 months ago and fell in love. We talked about marriage and are going to get married as soon as ex's legal problems were over. I so want to be her husband and take care of her and love her forever. I made a commitment to her and she to me. I have never cheated on a girl friend or wife. I am one of the last faithful men or so I am told. In October, we had a fight. She went to a party that night and ended up F'ing an ex boyfriend. I asked her if she had cheated on me the next day and several times after and she said no. I thought everything was OK. Everything was absolutely wonderful after we sat and talked things over. Two weeks ago she called me from work to tell me she was pregnant, I was shocked as I am almost incapable of having children and she has had problems with her system too. We have had unprotected sex for a year. I was also happy though because I love her dearly and there is no one I would rather have a child with but her. She then proceeded to ask me how much I loved her and I replied "more than anything in the whole world". She told me that there was a possibility that the child was not mine! * * * * hit the fan, I puked I was so torn inside. I have never had anyone kill me inside the way she did. I truly have a broken heart. She left for a day while I cooled down. All I wanted from her was the name of the F'ker that she did this with but she will not tell me. Why is she protecting him? It turns out the child is mine. She took a morning after pill after being with this guy and jump started her cycle somehow. My 3 percent chance of getting a woman pregnant became 100%! She told me that when we had the fight she thought it was over?? She went to a party, drank a bit, called this guy up, went to a bar with him, went back to the party with him and proceeded to be unfaithful to me. She not only bit the hand that feeds her, she tore it off and beat me to death with it! She lied about it and continued to live under my roof and sleep with me. I am totally nuts about all of this! I can't sleep and I hardly eat. I told her I forgive her. I do forgive her because she is the mother of my child. What I want to know is: How do I ever trust her again? How do I get rid of the hate and bitterness inside of me? How do I marry her and raise a family with her when I think she will just go out and do this again someday? How do I mend a shattered heart? I am dying inside and do not know what to do about it. I would like to find this other guy and vent a little rage on him if you know what I mean. I think that would help a lot. Please help me if you can?