auntb

I was in a very physically abusive relationship myself for 7 years. It's easy to say get out,when you're on the outside of the situation. I'm not saying that you shouldn't get out,by all means,please get out! But it's so hard when you're in the middle of it.I quit fighting one day and just waited on him to kill me.I decided enough bruises and broken bones,etc. was enough and if he didn't kill me, I'd run. Obviously, he didn't kill me.Thanks to some really true friends and most of my family and a wonderful therapist,I'm so much better! Pleas don't let it get worse.Don't be afraid to ask for help! It's out there. I hope you are alright. There are people who care!

I do see a therapist and she is helping.I remember more and more and I am writing.I want to just remember the whole thing and deal with it, but it's not happening that way.It explains so much,the more research I do. I do have to see him,no getting out of it. But I WILL NOT be alone.I'm not a stranger to the mental ward(for various other reasons),but I'm in no hurry to go back.I'm pretty scared.

I really new to this and I'm kinda freaking out andnot exactly surehow to go about it but.....I've been remembering some bad stuff that involved me and my brother,but just bits and pieces at a time.I will have to see him soon for the holidays and the closer it gets the more depressed and repulsed,actually. It's physically making me sick. Is my body trying to get my head to remember more? I don't think I can handle it