Angel_without_wings

thanks for the input, zack & blender. i see people in a way questioning my relationship and ive to say it somehow amuses me. i think ill never be able to explain this properly, we're the only ones who can understand what the deal is. he isnt married and ive spoken to his family, yes. as for why we've to wait id rather not get into that its so absurd and stupid. im a sceptic person myself but this is my certainty: i know it will happen. i wrote here just because ... actually i dont know why... he gives me all the reassurence i need and we talk about this whenever i want. i just wanted to see what other people in this situation do, how they cope.

thank you for the quick reply Ilse. we already discussed our disappointment, how many more times can we just discuss? we're on different continents so i guess you could say we're pretty far. love the cat by the by...

well we havent been dating because we cant which i realise doesnt sound too good. however moving in together is not a way to be closer its simply where this is headed in the most natural of ways. and while things are going really well its hard... its hard to wait... it becomes tiresome... and we've been at it for a while now.

i dont even know where to start... im not very good at sharing things with others... which is possibly why when i met him online i was so jazzed. we've been chatting for about 5 years and we were always rather close. for two years now our relationship evolved into something else... we've met in real life and it felt amazingly right, so right in fact that we've decided we wanted to move in together but for a number of reason unfortunately independent of our will we have to wait. im a little afraid... chatting isnt enough and this isnt getting any easier, we cant go on overtalking every single thing, we need to live together to experience things together otherwise ... and whats worse is we keep pretending we're just fine so as not to make each other uncomfortable and we try not to be silent because thats rather awkward when chatting and it all feels so wrong... i really dont know what to do.