ShadowGirl

Thanks, everyone. I don't know that I can just keep them away like that, though. Kara is my BEST friend, and has been for a long time. I would hate to lose her as a friend. As a best friend. I wouldn't like to lose Dan as a friend, either. I would be more ok with it than I would be with Kara, but I still want to be friends. I just want to be over him, already. I can't help that I like him, and I just want to be done liking him. I do agree though, in a year or so none of it will matter. I should have thought about that, seeing as it has happened to me before. And I'll edit my post and add this: I do feel pretty mature about how I handle dating. Compared to most people my age, I feel that I know how to handle a relationship better. Most people just date someone because "she's hot" "he's hot" and so on. But I wouldn't do that, that just ruins the whole point of dating. Also, most people would break up with their boyfriend/girlfriend over little things. I don't agree with that, I think that if there is a problem it needs to be discussed and resolved, not just ended with a "you didn't call me all weekend! it's over!" Gahh. Now I realize why I told myself I was just going to wait until highschool to try serious relationships. Almost no one at my school has any idea how to be mature about dating. I really do feel I'm alone on that one. I just hate all this he said, she said drama.

It's been a few weeks since my boyfriend (let's call him Dan) broke up with me. We dated for a few months, which is surprisingly long for people my age... 13. At first Dan said that he broke up with me because he didn't want a relationship anymore, and then it was that he didn't like me, and then it was because I hadn't been talking to him as much, and a couple of other reasons. He kept changing the reason he dumped me. Then, one or two weeks later, he came out and said he liked my best friend, let's call her Kara. Well this came as a surprise to me, because Dan is reeeaally shallow. And I'm not trying to be mean, but Kara isn't the kind of person he would like. Also, he hates preppy people, and she is pretty preppy. So now I'm not sure if he really likes her, or if he is just using her to make me jealous (he seemed really mad that I didn't overreact when he dumped me). But the fact is that she likes him back. At first, she said she would never go out with him because he is my ex, but then she said she would only go out with him if I was ok with it. And I wasn't, because I still liked him. Well then I was mad, because Dan asked Kara out and Kara said she'd think about it. At this time, I had decided that I didn't like Dan anymore (only as a friend) but that it would still really bother me if she went out with him. I can't explain it, I just really wouldn't like it if they dated. Part of it is because I don't want her to get hurt like I did, and another part is that I really just don't want them to date and I don't know why. Well she said she would think about it, and I told her "If you say no to him, please do not include me in the reason you don't want to go out with him! He'll bug me about it so much and drive me insane!" so she said she wouldn't say that she wouldn't date him because of me. Lo and behold, she told him "well I would date you but I don't want my best friend to hate me." Well, of course, I got mad at her, but I can't hold a grudge so it didn't last long. Then Dan was bugging me about how I should think about just moving on and letting them date, and I told him I would think about it. But we are all friends now (except they like eachother) so we went to the mall to hang out tonight. I realised something... I still really like Dan. And I miss what we had. It seems like just yesterday... we had so much fun and I really loved him, and I could tell he did too. But now I feel so messed up. I want to let him go so bad but I still like him a lot. I want Kara to be happy, but I'm not going to lie to her and say that I don't care if she dates Dan. I wouldn't do that. Well I told her that I still like Dan a lot. I just don't know what to do about all this. When we hung out today he seemed like he still liked me. Gah. I just don't know what to do about this. Help?