brokedownpoet

we went through last night trying really hard to decide how to go about this whole thing and... we're not really getting anywhere but frustrated. lol.

Okay.. i'm the kind of person that wants her " i miss you " and her " i'm thinking of you " to mean more than just those simple shallow words.. I'm not that great at expressing ( wordwise ) exactly how i feel about someone, the words make sense in my head but not when i spit them out, so that's where i need your help... I'm wondering if you could help me find words other than " i miss you " and " i'm thinking of you" words that are much deeper, a deeper way of saying it i guess... I looked in a thesarus and online but haven't been able to figure it out. I miss someone more than words can express and i think about them constantly ( no it's not my ex ), i just want them to know it without it seeming shallow minded, because it's sooooo much deeper than that. Your help would be GREATLY appreciated.. Thank you..

well he will still text me from time to time to tell me he's okay or something and it's so hard to not text back but i've managed.. i still have to get up the guts to write the whole story one of these days.

its been 3 days since ive nc.... its so hard..

Will the pain of losing the one you love to another every end??? will the hatred for the other girl ever end?? will the thought that you still want to talk to him every day of your life, every end??? is it okay to move on??? How long is it okay to cry for??? I will write my story, but for now i just need that off my chest, cause i am doing this almost alone and i need others out there who know what it's like and will pull me along side and encourage me... it's taken me 3 months to get my butt here, and now i'm here to hear what people have to say...

my ex said he wanted to be single and that he didn't love himself so he couldn't love me... before we were even over he was seeing someone else.. basically he flipped a switch and was finished with our relationship.. he cried the day he broke up with me, but i've cried a miiiiiiillllliooooooooooon in a half tears ( probably more ) and he doesn't care.. he tells me he's tired of hearing it, that i need to be stronger...So why do they tell us they love us??? to get in our pants.. I had a biiiiiiiiig long philosophy for this, but i don't have time to write it right now.

I am not going to really comment to anything anyone really said because it would cause a big fuss, but i just wanted to say hi and....... thanks for being there for my bro??? i guess that's all i can say... i myself am going through a break up... not as many years as his, but i am back in cali, doing it pretty much on my own, slowly but surely making friends here and there and trying to get on with my life... look for a thread from me.. i'll tell the whooooooole story.. but right now i've gotta go get the kid i nanny from school.