ignited83

hey just thought id post this up to try to give the people out there a helping hand, i dunno if this will help, but it seems to have helped me in my travells Yeah! [chorus] I guess That this is where we've come to If you don't want to Then you don't have to believe me But I won't be there when you go down Just so you know now You're on your own now believe me I don't want to be the one to blame You like fun and games Keep playing em I'm just sayin Think back then We was like one and the same On the right track But I was on the wrong train Just like that Now you've got a face to pain And the devil's got a fresh new place to play In your brain like a maze you can never escape the rain Every damn day is the same shade of grey Hey I used have a little bit of a plan Used to Have a concept of where I stand But that concept slipped right out of my hands Now I don't really even know who I am Yo, what do I have to say Maybe I should do what I have to do to break free What ever happens to you, we'll see But it's not gonna happen with me [chorus] I guess That this is where we've come to If you don't want to Then you don't have to believe me But I won't be there when you go down Just so you know now You're on your own now believe me Back then, I thought you were just like me Somebody who could see all the pain I see But you proved to me unintentionally That you would self-destruct eventually Now I'm thinking like the mistake I made doesn't hurt But it's not gonna work Cause it's really much worse than I thought I wished you were something that you were not And now this guilt is really all that I got You turned your back And walked away in shame All you got is a memory of pain Nothing makes sense so you stare at the ground And hear my voice in ya head when no one else's around What do I have to say Maybe I should do what I have to do to break free What ever happens to you, we'll see But it's not gonna happen to me [chorus] I guess That this is where we've come to If you don't want to Then you don't have to believe me But I won't be there when you go down Just so you know now You're on your own now believe me [bridge] [chorus] I guess That this is where we've come to If you don't want to Then you don't have to believe me But I won't be there when you go down Just so you know now You're on your own now believe me Do what i have to do You're on your own now believe me What ever happens to you You're on your own now believe me What do I have to say You're on your own now believe me It's not gonna happen to me You're on your own now believe me

the reason why i say i was a jerk is because i was a jerk lol i know i was, i said a lot of mean things to her, and i was rude to her, cause i would talk to her online and give lots of attitude, then from one day to the next i just stoped. something in my head clicked. yes i do want to get back with her, i did the NC for 3 weeks to step back and clear my head and work on myself. she can see that im different from what i was like before at the end of our relationship. and ive taken lots of time to really think things threw as in if i really do want her back, and i cant see myself with anyone else but her. i no shes scared to commit again... fear of me falling back to the way i was, and no trust according to her due to the fact she says i wasnt there for her enough. i try my hardest to not kiss her and sometimes im strong enough not to, she will kiss me but i dont kiss back or i move away. and both times that we had sex was started by her. i agree things shot off to fast, she wanted to take it slow and like i said both times having sex she started things, and 90% of the time its her asking me to come over, go shoping, go for lunch etc..... i think i will force a slow down for a bit, not be there for her so much, get her to miss me a bit, and see what that does for me.....

hello everyone... just wondering what you guys think of my situation to date and any possible advice that can be passed along my way. after about a 6 week absense from eachother 3 weeks of it being NC ive now been seeing my ex for the past coupld weeks, doing things like going for lunch, taking her to school, we've done the deed a couple times, and last night we went out for martini's... about 90% of the time spent together is her asking me to come out and see her. we've done other things such as shoping going for coffees and we do quite a bit of kissing and hugging. But this has me perplexed due to the fact that when i first started seeing her she told me not to get the wrong impression, that she doesnt want to get back together. that we should take it slow, but in 2 weeks ive seen her about 10 out of the 14 days 2 weeks has to offer. i always keep things light and happy, i make her laugh like no other, but she always notices when im a little upset, usually when i take her home cause i dont want her to leave i guess, cause im so happy around her. i no theres another guy that is really interested in her, but she doesnt want anything to do with him appearently, he doesnt get the hint. and she seems to want to hang out with me and wants me to go over to her place above anyone else, excpet for when she goes out to party with her friends, last night being an acception, which i gotta say, it caught me off guard. anyways, im just wondering something. why is she wanting to spend so much time with me now? after ive been such a jerk to her during the 6 weeks of not seeing her or talking to her? plus the 3 weeks of NC..... and is it possible that her feelings could have changed in the span of 2 weeks? being that she said she doesnt want to jump into anything..... and shes just to shy/scared to say something being that she was the one to dump me.....? i dont really want to push the question on her or get into details like that cause im scared it will push her away. but at the same time i kinda wonder if she is just using me.....? so many thoughts go threw my head and i have this problem of really over thinking thing...... thanks in advance......

and in response to your questions dreamguy, no she hasnt asked for time alone or for me not to contact her, infact, all the times i went to see her including today was her asking me to come by

well i just got back now from seeing her, i went to her house with coffee. we chilled at her house, she crawled into her bed and told me to join.... i was like ok? she we just laid there really, then we started kissing and yeah i dont need to explain what happened next.... we left her place and went to an all day breakfast place, ate then went to a park. she seemed happy, we kissed a lot in the park, but what we did at her house was on my mind steady... i dont know if it ment anything to her at all, or if it was just casual? i didnt dare ask or talk about it because i think its too soon. i do love her with all my heart, and i do want this to work out, cause when we are with eachother it seems so right, and were both very happy, lots of laughing and joking around.... i think i am slowly building up the trust but its hard to tell cause she told me last week how she can push her feelings to the side....

the reason for the break up according to her is this.... she said i was never there for her, she lost trust in me due to that fact, she said, how do you think it feels to have a bf, but not have one at the same time... things became to routine for her.... it was never a question of cheating or anything like that

ok i was with my ex for 5 years, she broke up with me 2 months ago, 1 week after the break up i went 3 weeks NC... then slowly started talking to her online only. so fast forward a bit.... i saw her monday tuesday friday and saturday.... all those day were fun filled according to her, she enjoyed herself, we did things like go for lunch, shopping, went to the lakeshore coffees, and lots of talking, but i made her laugh a lot, which is something ive always been good at doing with her... anyways, there was one day, think it was tuesday, where we kissed alot in my car when we were at the lakeshore, and she started to cry saying she doesnt want me to get the wrong impression of getting back together cause its not what she wants.... but its hard to say cause saturday rolls around and we had a really fun times, we were in my car at the coffee shop and she held me tightly, laid her head on my shoulder, kissed me like 15 times on the lips, but i wouldnt kiss her, it was one sided kisses... she told me she loves it when i hug her cause it makes her feel safe, and she listened to my heart beat...... so all this confuses me.... i no she loves me and cares for me, she is just confused it seems.... im trying not to think much into it.... any ideas as to what this is all about????

i agree with robo... i wish my ex would realise that the grass always LOOKS greener, but never really is.... maybe in time she will realise it

well for me ive been seeing my ex quite a bit in the past week, i just got home from seeing her and we were in my car in the coffee shop parking lot, and we hugged, flirted, i said some corny lines like let me listen to your heart beat, and she did to me aswell, we rubbed faces together, and she kissed me a few times, i tried my hardest not to kiss her at all, and we continued to hug a lot.... now tell me ladies whats up with this? im so lost by her actions because a couple days earlier she told me that shes doesnt want me to get the wrong idea. shes not looking to get back together. she says shes confused, she still loves me but is confused and that something is missing and until she finds out what it is, she doesnt want a relationship.... but let me tell you, tonight she just seemed so interested, but i dont want to think much of it or it will eat me alive....